I shrugged. ‘That’s what I’m struggling with.’
‘Are your feelings for him stronger or weaker than your feelings for Nick?’
‘I can’t work that out either. Nick was so new and exciting and stirred something I hadn’t felt in so long. I keep thinking about him. A text from him on Christmas Day had my stomach in knots and I found myself checking out his Facebook page in the evening just to have some contact with him. But Andy is familiar. I know it’s been eight years but kissing him felt like we’d never been apart. And, yesterday, my thoughts only drifted to Nick a few times. I was far more focused on Andy. But was that just because I was with him and he’d organised the dream date?’
‘Then I put a question to you,’ Elise said. ‘If Andy had just taken you to The Old Theatre or The Purple Lobster for lunch and a bracing walk around The Headland, would you have kissed him?’
I thought for a moment. ‘You’re thinking the only reason I kissed him was because I was swept away with the romance of the balloon flight rather than because I’m falling for him again?’
‘Could it have been? I think it would take a pretty strong person not to be moved by such a massive gesture.’
‘Possibly. Oh, I don’t know. I’m confused. Help!’
Elise slurped on her herbal tea for a few moments. ‘How about we play a little game? I saw something like this onFriendsonce. Don’t laugh at me but I want you to lie down on the sofa, close your eyes and try to relax.’
‘Seriously?’
‘Have you got a better idea for solving your current dilemma?’
‘No.’ I figured anything was worth a try so I did as I was told. Elise dimmed the lights and waited for me to stop fidgeting.
‘When I ask you a question,’ she said, ‘I want you to give me the very first thing that comes into your head. Okay?’
‘Okay.’
‘What do you enjoy most? A shower or a bath?’
‘A bath.’
‘Which is best?PoldarkorOutlander?’
‘Outlander.’
‘What do you prefer? Chocolate or crisps?’
‘Crisps.’
‘What’s stopping you from telling Andy to leave?’
‘He might betheSteven.’
‘Do you prefer summer or winter?’
‘Winter.’
‘Night out or night in.’
‘Night in.’
‘Jeans or PJs?’
I laughed. ‘PJs. Definitely.’
‘London or here?’
‘Here.’
‘What’s stopping you from going for it with Andy?’
