“There was an incident,” Lyndon admitted, “of which I do not wish to speak.When I was much your age.And, as a consequence, I became unwell.I quarrelled with my parents, incessantly.I drank too much.After reaching my majority, I spent several years as a scoundrel, a rake, a spendthrift.Our father died, but not before removing the bulk of my annual income.At the time, I could not see he did it in my best interests and in the best interests of Ashington.It felt like the cruellest blow and…and I sought revenge by hounding Benedict.I blamed him for everything.I behaved abominably and almost destroyed the Fitzsimmons name and my dear, kind brother’s life.”
“But you didn’t.”
“No.”
Lyndon hated how his voice broke.How that single syllable could so easily have been a yes.And how much this extraordinary creature in his arms, on hearing that syllable, wanted to believe Lyndon to be a good man.
“Yet I would have done,” he confessed.“Gladly.Except Benedict admitted his mounting concerns to your father, who intervened.Together, they taught me a most harsh lesson in a manner most brutal and humiliating and absolutely everything I deserved.”
Rollo let out a long breath.“That is why you disliked me so.”
“Yes.”Lyndon laughed softly.“The arrival of the Earl of Rossingley’s bantling did not improve my mood.Clearly, your father was of the opinion he hadn’t punished me enough.”
“I shall pretend I didn’t hear that.”Rollo’s fine hair fluttered every time Lyndon exhaled.Even more so when Lyndon rested his chin on his head.Somehow, their feet had moved closer together too.They had become so interwoven that it was difficult to define where one had ended and the other began.
“Do you still feel the same?”Rollo enquired against Lyndon’s chest.“Bearing in mind I am standing nearer to the poker than you.”
Lyndon laughed again.“I have since found out that his unwelcome gift is a capricious sprite.And his torment is an excellent tonic for the blue devils.”
“Heavens above.Better than lavender oil?”
“As I have absolutely no intention of ever putting my body anywhere near that most unmanly of potions, I shall never find out.”
Lyndon embraced him even tighter, one last time, then stepped back a little.A smug smile crept across Rollo’s face as if he knew exactly how much Lyndon had relished their intimacy.Lyndon could easily have kept it going another hour, though who knew where his garrulous tongue might have led him if he did.He attempted a severe look.
“Now it is time to leave me in peace.No doubt you have a dreadful novel to read and pages of foolscap to fill with inane drivel, and I certainly have a painting of the chapel roof to ruin.Otherwise, heaven forbid, you will think I’m soft.”
*
“I SHALL TAKEmy luncheon in the library today, Berridge,” Lyndon announced, handing his hat to the waiting butler and continuing apace towards the stairs.“I’ll wash first.”
Having spent an hour reading to Will, then weeding his potato patch under a relentless hot sun and to a background of Will’s running critique of his prowess with a hand fork, Lyndon was ravenous.“Simpson has sent over a mound of papers relating to the building accounts for me to wade through.I may as well get started.”
“Um…” For once, Berridge appeared ill at ease.“Mr Duchamps-Avery has…ah…requested a picnic be made up.”
Lyndon’s long stride came to a juddering halt.“Apicnic?”
“Yes, my lord.Cook advised him regarding your preferred meats and cheeses.He has food and drink in baskets.Rugs and a flagon too.Plates, and a cloth to cover the grass.”
Pinching the bridge of his nose, Lyndon sighed.His routines and the running of his household used to be so straightforward.“I am abreast of the fundamentals of a picnic, Berridge.But I’m at a loss to explain how it pertains to me.”
“You are to be his picnicking guest.”
Lyndon sighed again.“I assume this is an outdoor picnic?”
“Yes, my lord.They…um…generally are.”
The last time Lyndon had picnicked outside, he’d been in short trousers.“If I’d wanted ants crawling over my food, I’d have put in a request to Cook first thing.Could we not dine on the same lunch inside?Insect free?”
Berridge looked pained.“It…ah…it may be too late for that, my lord.My understanding is that Greaves and young Jack have already carted everything out onto the south lawn.They have set up under the beech trees overlooking Beccles Vale.Mr Duchamps-Avery has chosen a delightful spot, if I may say so.I believe he already awaits your presence in the gardens.”
“I see.”
“He particularly requested Cook prepare rout cakes, and I believe there is salmagundi.”
Lyndon’s mouth watered.Two of his absolute favourites.Since his extravagant display of verbosity two days earlier, he was no longer sure he had the nerve to look Rollo in the eye.He’d admitted he found the young man beguiling!And had poured out his woes, one by one.Even Will, privy to all of Lyndon’s numerous failings, had never been subjected to the horror of hearing them enumerated so thoroughly.
Thus, Lyndon was ashamed to admit he’d been avoiding him.He’d found an excuse to spend the entirety of yesterday in Norwich, managing spurious financial affairs, rising early and returning late.But he couldn’t avoid his house guest forever, and the trip had been rather less successful in relegating Rollo from his mind than he’d hoped.The warm leather of his carriage seat, for instance, had brought to mind the heat of Rollo’s trim body crushed against his own.The squeak of a carriage wheel mimicked the cry of his release.The undulating curve of Bishop Bridge, taking Lyndon over the murky waters of the Wensum and into Norwich, had taken the shape of the supple arch of Rollo’s back as Lyndon pleasured himself against him.Honestly, the damned pup was everywhere he bloody went.
