“Don’t worry. Shouldn’t have mentioned it, it was foolish of me. I forgot nothing happened.”
“But something did. You can’t forget that.”
“I want to. I have to. So...” She shrugged her arm out of my grasp as I placed a Band Aid on her cut. “You can stop pretending to care.”
“I wasn’t pretending.” I narrowed my eyes at her.
“Please, just don’t. It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter anymore. None of it matters.”
“Jia, it matters to me…” There I went once again, venturing down that path that was forbidden to me. She was forbidden to me and yet I thought I should go down this road I knew had no hope.
I reached out and touched her face. A tear ran down her cheek and she shook her head.
“Please don’t touch me. I can’t bear it. I can’t have you touch me and know I can’t have you.”
Can’t have.
Shouldn’t have.
Mustn’t have.
Rules.
Fucking rules keeping me away from what I wanted.
Since when did I start playing by the rules?And,who placed them on me? I wanted her. I wanted her badly. I ached to touch her the way I wanted. I ached to be inside her.
She tried to back away from me but I caught her. The resistance stopped there.
I pulled her back to me, cupped her face and went straight to her delicious lips.
She didn’t resist me. She didn’t fight. She just gave in the same way I did, pushing aside everything to have this moment.
I’d shared several moments with this woman I shouldn’t have had. This was another. And damn, I never knew I could feel this way from one kiss.
Desire shot like a lance straight to my groin, igniting fire in me to take her. Just rip her clothes from her body and give in to the beast inside me that wanted to let loose. It came from the restraint I’d placed on my inner desires. The want, the need. The greed.
Yes I was greedy and selfish when it came to her.
That part of me didn’t want to understand the reasons why I couldn’t have her. That part of me didn’t want to accept them.
It was bullshit to me, all of it.
As a breathy moan tore from her lips I knew what I was going to do before I did it and it wasn’t to turn back or say no, or do the right thing by everyone else.
It was what I wanted.
Her soft, lush body pressed against mine, her lips kissing me with the same greed that ravaged inside me.
Turning back or saying no was not a choice either of us were going to entertain.
I certainly wasn’t.
Chapter 6
Jia
Oh God…
