“Nothing. I promise. I like everything. I just want more.”
“That’s not helpful.”
“It’s true. I just… I wanna be good for you.”
“Sweetheart, you try so hard to be perfect. I see it. I don’t need perfect. You’re wonderful. You are. What about this? What just happened here? One second you were fine and then you were upset. Guess if you have to.”
Whatever. His mind is going a million miles an hour now. Why isn’t he being fucked brutally over the counter? Will Coltoneverlose control with him? Desire Graham so much he acts recklessly? A Dominant is selfish and might be careless of his sub’s needs. That’s just how it is. And Colton is supposed to be up there, so shouldn’t he be some sexually aggressive deviant instead of Mr. Calm?
I can’t stand the thought of losing you. Of this not being permanent. I don’t want to live if you let me go.
And that would scare Colton away. It would have to. It scares Graham and he’s just the one thinking it! Any sane Dominant would run if he heard a submissive say that.
Which means that instead of saying the truth he tries to change the subject.
“Doms make mistakes. They learn.”
“Hmm. A Dominant making mistakes isn’t a good thing. And a submissive isn’t good just because he endures his Dominant.”
Graham shrugs. “I guess. But I think that ignores biology. A Dominant is overcome with passion and a submissive responds to that. I want to be swept away. I want to be everything to you. If you need me, then… I want to say yes to whatever mighthappen.” His voice wobbles at the end because it’s too close to how he really feels. He’ll doanythingto keep Colton.
“That’s very generous of you, Graham. And I think we’ll get to that point. Probably fairly quickly. But I’m not going to justact. I can’t take the risk of hurting you. Submissives get hurt when Dominants take things they’re not willing or ready to give. This is the pace we’ll go. But don’t think that means I don’t want you more than I’ve ever wanted anyone in my entire life.”
“Then why do others get things I don’t?” he whispers.
Fingers pump in and out of his hole several times, sinking a little deeper on each thrust. Distracting and soothing. God, he loves Colton doing anything to his ass. “I feel myself going down when you do that.”
“And you’ll be even better once I get my cock in you again. Feel good, baby?”
“Makes this conversation bearable,” he says, turning his head and kissing Colton on the mouth. He feels Colton smile and it makes him warm inside.
“Good. We’re almost done talking. You’re amazing.” Colton pulls his fingers free and Graham is both relieved and grief-stricken.
“I think you give other submissives things you won’t give me.” Shit.
“Okay, sweetheart,” Colton says, voice soft. So gentle that it brings tears to Graham’s eyes. “What do you think I give them?”
Graham shrugs.
Colton sighs. “I want to be your Dominant for good, Graham. I think you’re it for me. I’m terrified I’m going to ruin this.”
“I-me too,” he confesses. A sob escapes him.
“Shh. I believe you. I know that’s true, baby. Is that what you’re twisted up about? The possibility of this ending?”
“Yes.” The confession is a relief and he sags against Colton, feels the man brace himself and then he’s draping his body over Graham’s and the counter is hard and cold. Perfect.
The discomfort. The pain. The feeling of being needed. Necessary. “I’m entitled to all of your pain and your insecurities. Every single one of them. Be good for Daddy now.”
Graham gasps, some emotional response to that word coiling in his stomach. A visceral reaction that he can’t identify as good or bad. “No, Daddy,” Graham rasps.
Which isn’t what he meant to say. But, he can’t think. And the effect of saying that word is devastating. He’s so damn empty.
“You’re mine, and your ass is mine.” He jerks Graham forward and Graham goes along with it eagerly, desperate to get fucked.
Daddy, he thinks, even though he shouldn’t. He can’t let his mind settle on that.
“You think we need more slick?”
