“I think I’ve got a splinter,” Ru blurted.
Jasim laughed. “Seriously?”
“Yes.”
“Unzip and I’ll take look.”
How fecking embarrassing.Ru eased his jeans and shorts down, turned round and a moment later, felt Jasim’s teeth on his backside. A stab of pain, then Jasim stood and showed him the sliver of wood.
“You were right.”
“Thank you.” Ru yanked his shorts and jeans back up. “Should I…?” He looked at the bulge in Jasim’s jeans.
“There’s no need.”
Ru wrapped his arms around him and kissed him, tasting himself on Jasim’s lips. “I want to,” he whispered.
“It’s not just about sex. I don’t want you to think that.”
“I still want to.”
Jasim chuckled. “I’m not going to say no.”
Ru did what Jasim had done to him and felt his own cock fill again as he tried to get as much of Jasim into his mouth as he could. Jasim was making all sorts of strangled sounds. Fingers tightened in Ru’s hair and he began to drive his cock into Ru’s mouth. Taking charge. But that was okay. Ru kind of liked that dominance.
When Jasim came, Ru struggled to swallow it all. Jasim pulled him up and kissed him again and Ru’s pulse raced. He felt Jasim’s phone vibrating against his hip, though Jasim didn’t stop kissing him. But when the phone continued to vibrate, Jasim pulled away and took it out. His face paled and he put his finger to Ru’s lips. Ru nodded, picked up his stuff and walked a little way away.
There were always going to be secrets with a guy who wasn’t prepared to come out.Though I’m not exactly out, am I?Ru kicked at the undergrowth as he walked through the trees. Who did he have to come out to? His parents? His workmates? If he ever spoke to his parents again, he’d tell them, though he’d only be doing that to piss them off. He saw no point in telling people here, not unless he was asked. But he wouldn’t hide what he was. He wasn’t ashamed. Though he was aware that he might put Jasim at risk by being open, so he’d be careful.
Ru heard someone coming up behind him and turned. Jasim looked worried.
“Are you okay?” Ru asked.
“That was my twin, Selah. Twenty minutes older than me. He was warning me that our older brother Waqas and his wife are in England to collect their sons from school and might drop in unannounced.”
“Have they ever visited before?”
“Once. About five years ago.”
“Did Selah warn you then, too?”
“He did.”
Ru smiled. “So someone in your family is on your side.”
“Not as much as I’d like.”
“But better than nothing. You go back. I’ll stay out here for a while.”
Jasim put his hand to Ru’s cheek. “I’m not giving you up. I told you I’d make this work and I will. We just need to be extra careful now. I’m still going to give you a swimming lesson. Be at the pool in an hour, okay?”
Jasim headed back to the house wondering if Waqas’s visit was just a simple check up on what he was doing, or if there was more to it than that. What would Waqas do if he found him shacked up with Ru? Not stay long, for a start, but what else? Outside of his immediate family, and those who’d tried to convert him from gay to straight, plus…four people in the UK…five including Ru, no one thought he was gay. It had never been hinted at in the press. No one had ever asked him about his sexual orientation. Not even women he’d politely discouraged. While that was the case, his family could pretend he was…normal.I am normal. Just not their normal.
And his father wouldn’t kill himself.
He shuddered. His father’s words were etched in Jasim’s heart.If you live a gay life, wherever you are, I will find out and I will kill myself. Then your brothers will kill you and whoever you have been with because you are a disgrace to this family.
Jasim climbed over the gate and strode through the next field. There would be no reconciliation with his family. He’d never go back to Saudi Arabia. It was no longer his home. But he had to live his own life. How could he ever be happy otherwise? What he’d done with Tye, then for Tye, had scarred him. He still woke sometimes with his heart racing, bathed in sweat when he remembered. There would be no more paying for sex. He had the chance of something different with Ru and he wasn’t going to let that chance slip through his fingers.
