A dam inside of me breaks, and the floodgates are wide open now. I have tried so hard not to miss him, have done everything possible to keep myself busy so I don’t have time to think about him. I was so stupid to think that was even possible. Every movie night is one I wish was with the boys. Every lunch is one I wish was at The Park. Every date is just another man who doesn’t call medarlin’in a thick Southern drawl. I hate every second of it.
Ellie:Could I maybe call you?
Griffin:Can’t, busy
This time it’s all sob, no laugh. God, I wish I could go back to twenty minutes ago and throw my phone out thewindow before I had the chance to tell the stupid lie that led to the stupid text.
Griffin:But I can call you tomorrow
All laugh, no sob–I’m going to have the worst emotional hangover.
Ellie:Tomorrow is great. Call me any time, I don’t have any plans
Griffin:No plans on a Saturday?
Shit.
Ellie:Long week, just wanted to hang at my apartment tomorrow
I shift uncomfortably on the couch. The lies are coming a little too easily these days.
Griffin:Alright then
Griffin:I’ll call you tomorrow
For the first time in months, Isleep like a baby.
***
September
Ellie: I’m glad we got to talk
Ellie: It was nice to hear your voice again
Griffin: Me too, darlin’. Me too.
Griffin: Don’t be a stranger.
November
Griffin: Happy 22nd birthday, darlin’.
Ellie: Thank you for remembering :)
Griffin: Like I could ever forget anything about you
Griffin: What’d you wish for this year?
Ellie: I’d tell you, but then I’d have to kill you
Griffin: C’mon, tell me
Griffin: I’d die a happy man
Ellie: You, Griffin. I wished for you.
December
