I can see just by watching him that he's stuck inside his own memories. I know that look, I've had it happen to me before. I also know that something about what happened with me or what I told them is what's triggered it.
I make my way swiftly towards him. As soon as I get close enough, I call his name and he freezes, his fist mid-air, his back tense. I can hear the guys move from behind me and I move quickly so they won't try to stop me.
I rush around Kai until I'm facing him and place my hands gently on his face. He just stares straight ahead but a glimpse of his eyes breaks my heart. Gone is the caring, mischievous spark and in its place is pain and shadows.
His eyes are haunted.
"Sweetheart! What the fuck do you think you're doing? Get away from him now, he's not himself!" Hunter yells at me.
I feel Kai tense under my palms and I gently stroke my thumbs over his cheeks, causing him to slowly relax. I lean slightly around Kai and shoot a glare at Hunter. He looks as though he's about to rush forward but Levi stops him with a firm hand on his shoulder.
"Look," he says simply.
"I am fucking looking, she needs to move away now."
"No Hunter, fucking look at him, he's not fighting. He's still trapped in his memories but he's not fighting. That has never happened before. It's because of Sage, take her away from him now and you will cause moredamage." Levi explains, firmly.
"Fucking Hell." Maverick mutters.
"Well shit.” Hunter swears harshly. "Fine,"he agrees reluctantly, obviously not happy with the situation.
Satisfied that no one is going to try to stop me, I turn back to Kai. My hands are still on his cheeks and he's stood statue still. I gently pull his face down to mine so I can look him in his eyes, they quickly flick towards the floor.
"Look at me, Kai." I say gently but firmly, there's no response from him, his eyes remain planted on the floor.
A name whispers through my mind and I don't question it.
"Kai Elliot Storm, look at me."I say firmly.
The shock of hearing his full name makes him snap his head up, his eyes clashing with mine.
"I'm ok, Kai look at me. I'm ok.” He's listening but he's still stuck.
I do the only thing I can think of and I lean forward to kiss his cheek, I hear his sharp inhale of breath before I kiss him on his other cheek close to his mouth.
The electricity from before sparks through me and I know he can feel it too. I feel when it snaps through his memories and brings him back to the surface.
"I couldn't save her, I tried, I really did but he had already killed her.” He crumples into my arms.
I slowly lower us to the floor, leaning against the wall for support and cradle him to me. His arms wrap around me as he buries his head into my neck. His sobs rack his body and wet my t-shirt as my own tears join his, my heart breaking at his words.
I don't know what his words meant but I know that it was the cause for his flashback. I won't ask, when he’s ready he will tell me. If that never happens then that's fine with me.
We stay like that for a while before his sobs quiet down and he slips into a healing sleep. I can't help the smile that takes over my face as he lets out an almighty snore sounding exactly like a chainsaw.
The others obviously seeing my smileslowly make their way towards us. Settling on the floor around us. I melt as each of them places a comforting hand on Kai and he snuggles deeper into me. I run my hand through his soft hair, humming a lullaby that I have known for years but can't remember where I learnt it.
I glance up and abruptly stop humming. Maverick and Levi both have matching haunted looks on their handsome faces. I panic slightly thinking I've done something wrong.
"Our mother used to sing that to us when we were younger." Levi explains his voice breaking slightly.
I reach out my free arm to him and he comes willing as I hold onto his hand tightly and tug him next to me and Kai. He places his head ontop of mine and wraps his arm around Kai. I turn to face Maverick and he immediately does the same as Kai and buries his head into my neck, wrapping his arm around me and Kai and holding tightly to Levi’s hand.
Hunter and Jax both move as close as possible and lay comforting hands on both of them.
"Please don't stop." Maverick says quietly.
I thought I had long ago forgotten the words to the lullaby but as I begin to hum, I remember the words with ease and I slowly start to sing feeling my beautiful, damaged guys relax. After it’s finished, they both sit up and look at me.
