I clutched my legs together as tight as Icould and attempted to push and squirm away from him, but Darren’shand took hold of both my wrists and pinned them above my headwhile the other wrenched my legs apart. His hand reached into mypanties roughly, sinking his fingers deep between my lips until aslow devious grin spread across his face.
“Just as I thought,” he sneered.
Goddamnmybody for being such a traitor. I tried to rationalize with myselfas I bit back the tears that threatened to fall from Darren’sobvious truth. I couldn’t help that I liked it rough. I wasn’t agentle person by nature, so why in the hell would I be the same wayin bed? It didn’t help that I happened to find Darren extremelyattractive, and it became a strange new feeling when I somehowfound my fear of him a turn-on. It just meant he would ravage methat much harder. It was as if I was becoming used to a drug I hadno idea was in my system. But I would never admit it to him.
Darren then retracted his hand and placedthose two fingers in his mouth, sucking them until his tonguecleaned off my sex from his skin. I felt revolted, but it stillturned me on nonetheless.
“You’re such a horrible liar, princess.” Hegrinned at me.
With that smile still twisting on his face,he suddenly gripped the underside of my jaw and kissed meviolently, swirling his tongue inside my mouth. I could tastemyself on his tongue while a surge of heat thrived between my legs.Rain poured down hard over us, drenching our bodies and turning myhair into a stringy wet mess as Darren continued his assault.
“And you know how much I hate it when youtry to lie to me,” he growled, tracing the tip of his finger downthe side of my soaking wet face. My wrists were throbbing from thepressure he kept on them, as they remained trapped above my head. Itried to twist them free, but they remained in his strong grip.
“But I also know how much you love it when Ibreak your rules,” I seethed back through clenched teeth.
“And why would you say that?”
“Well, aside from the dead giveaway in yourpants,” Ieyedhim dangerously,“it gives you a reason to punish me. And that drives you wild.”
“I don’t need a reason to punish you,princess,” he said, grazing his lips against my cheek.
“But you certainly love having one.Otherwise, it contradicts the ‘training program’ you’ve designedfor me.”
“That little program is designed to teachyou one thing. Do what you’re told and I won’t have to hurtyou.”
“But it doesn’t matter whether I listen toyou or not. You’re going to hurt me anyway. You always do.”
He was silent for a moment as he sucked in abreath, and I wondered if he was going to admit the truth. And hedid.
“Yes,” he whispered in my ear, his thumbrubbing back and forth along the curve of my jaw. “You’re right. Iam. I’m that monster in the dark that loves to terrorize you,Jaden. But you’re the one who thrives so well in the lion’sden.”
I looked at him confused. “And just what isthat supposed to mean?”
“It means you can lie to yourself all youwant, but that shit ends with me. If anyone’s the coward here, it’syou, Jaden.At least,I can admitI’m a monster. You can’t even admit how much you enjoy what I do toyou because your stupid feminist pride won’t let you.”
My stupid feminist pride? Was heserious?
“You think I enjoy this?” I yelled at him asmore rain continued to fall and drench us. “You think I enjoyhaving my freedom taken away?”
His eyes blazed with an intensity thatrivaled the ocean. With his hair loose and wet from therain,he looked like a crazed animal ready todevour me at any second. And still, I continued my stupidrebellion.
“Yes, as a matter of fact, I do,” he said.“I know what kind of life you lived before me, Jaden. I know youwere always in charge, calling all the shots, leading the way andsecuring yourself a nice little pedestal for the future. But Ithink, deep down inside, you’ve always wondered what it would belike for someone like me to come along and take all that away fromyou.”
“I have no idea what the fuck you’re talkingabout.”
“Oh, I think you do, princess. I think, deepdown, you want to be afraid of someone. I bet even the idea of itfascinated you long before I ever got my hands on you. I bet youused to lie in bed at night next to that piece of shit of a man,wondering what it would feel like to have someone truly strongenough come along and dominate you until you finally found yourselfbegging for more. But of course, you could never give in to thosewhims, could you? It would contradict your image too much. I think,for as strong as you are, you want to know what it feels like forsomeone to finally break you down and force you intosubmissionbecause we both know that’s the onlyway you ever would.”
My heart was pounding under the weight ofhis words. They hurt like sharp darts piercing my soul, hitting thebull’s-eye every time. But not for the same reason. He was wrong.He had to be. I was lonely and had grownaccustomedto his ways. I was adapting to my treatment,evolving into something I hadn’t anticipated. Yes, I wanted him. Iwanted his attention, his affection, and his touch, but I’ll bedamned if I didn’t want my freedom more and that was all theconfirmation I needed to remind myself that I wasn’t completelybrainwashed. I knew my body contradicted my mind and my heart, butthat was all Darren needed to validate his claims, which in my bookwasn’t admissible as authentic evidence. But, as usual, his wordwas all the mattered.
“Whatever helps you sleep at night,” I said,shaking my head and looking away from him. Arguing with him waspointless and exhausting. It never did me any good, and I wasalways wrong anyway.
“The only thing that helps me sleep at nightis fucking you until you’re sore and broken and gasping for more,”he growledatme and ripped meoffthe wall.
I met the pavement of the patio hard whilepuddles of rainwater splashed around my body. Thunder rolled aboveme, or maybe it was just Darren ripping my clothes from my body ina flash of violence and extreme determination. I put my hands upindefense, but it didn’t stop himfrom pulling himself free and plungingintome.
My body suddenly bowed to him in ways Ididn’t think possible. The heat that had been burning deep insideof me was finally satiated as Darren drilledintome with a primal need that I had no way ofunderstanding. In a bold move filled with anger and frustration, Isuddenly decided to whip the lion and ripped Darren’s shirt open,buttons flying in all directions as my nails clawed down his barechest. Darren made a low growl of approval as he brought his mouthdown to my neck, biting me until I screamedfrompain and pleasure.
Heatsoaredthroughout my body as Darren pumped into me, sending my bloodrushing like Niagara Falls. The roughness of the pavement scratchedmyback,but it didn’t last longas Darren’s long arms reached under me, resting me on top of themwhile the underside of his forearms absorbed the brunt of histhrusts. It wasn’t long before the savagery gave wings to theorgasm that took flight almost immediately. I was taken to newheights as pleasure collided with pain when Darren abruptly rammedinto me even harder and I screamed out while his own orgasm tookhim over.
