I shuddered at thethought of having to face his permanent mark on my skin every dayfor the rest of my life. As if I needed another reminder that heowned me. I would have to find a good specialist for laser therapyif he followed through on his little fantasy.
“I think I deserve a place on your body, don’t youthink?”
“Wouldn’t you prefer me to want your name on my body, ratherthan you forcing it and me hating it?”
“Or you could accept it graciously as it would please me foryou to do so.” He narrowed his eyesatme. My reluctance was irritating himnow.
I kept my mouthshut then; no matter howmuch Iprotested, he would stilldo what he wanted. I was essentially wasting my breath and pissinghim off.
Eventually, histhumbs ceased their pressure, and his hands slowly started to traildown my arms, causing my skin to break out in goosebumps. Followingdown my shoulders, his palms covered down my sides and my heartstarted to flutter in my chest. The way he looked at me, sointensely, so possessively, sent shivers down myspine.
And then hegripped the bottom of my dress and completely ripped it open as ifit were paper. My body tensed under the surprise of his attack onmy clothes, my muscles fully flexed as Darren gazed down at me witha slight smirk of satisfactiononhis face.
My body was fullybared to him, the only thing covering me from him being my yellowthong and lacy barely-there bra. I closed my eyes tight and pursedmy lips, fighting back the rage that threatened toescape.
“God, you have the most incredible body,” he said, rubbing hispalms up and down my rib cage, his thumbs padding over my abs andsending a wave of sensation through myskin.
Lowering himselfto me, he pressed his lips to mine so gently, I wasn’t sure it wasreal. It was a whisper of a kiss, soft and sensual, something Iwasn’t sure he was capable of.Some timelater, he started kissing down my jawlineand softly at my neck, nipping at my skin with his teeth here andthere. My breathing became heavy as he turned my skin on with hissensual touches … but all I wanted to do was bolt from theroom.
My body wasreacting to his touch in ways I didn’t want to admit, and I wishedmy brain would tell it to wake the fuck up. But I had beensubjected to so much violence and anguish that there was no way mybody was going to reject something that wasn’tpain.
His kissescontinued down my chest, passing through the valley of my breastsand down my stomach. His hands caressed over my body, capturing myhips while the warmth of his skin on mine awakened my senses,setting me on fire. I hated it, but I loved it at the same time,his gentleness and desire overwhelming me. I could feel hiserection pressing against my leg as he continued to leaveabreadcrumbtrailofkisses down my abdomen.
And then hisfingers lightly brushed the underside of my breast and I took in asharp breath at the contact, not really wanting him to touch me,but somehow needing it. But then one lingering thought drenched therising fire in a waterfall of pain and betrayal. Jason’s facesuddenly entered my mind, and I thought of how he would feel if Igave in to this man. I knew I didn’t have a choice and he wouldunderstand that, but the fact my body was starting to enjoy it waswhere my honest betrayal was. Even though one man owned me, itdidn’t break my loyalty to another.
I was drivingmyself crazy with my internal debate. How could I enjoy the touchof a monster? Of the touch of the man who had taken me from my lifeand subjected me to the horrors of his? What was I now, some slavehe could just turn into his whore? What the fuck was wrong with me?I couldn’t do this.
“Stop,” I whispered, a tear slipping down mycheek.
Darren raised hisface from my stomach, his fingers still grazing my breasts, andlooked at me confused.
“What did you just say?”
“Stop. Please.” I couldn’t look at him, just stared at theceiling hoping he would take pity on me.
“You were enjoying this a second ago, and don’t try to tell meyou weren’t. Your body can’t lie to me no matter how much you wantit to. What changed, Jaden? Whathappened?”
“I just can’t. I don’t want this.
“Yes, you can and you do. You need to stop thinking and justlet your body enjoy it,” he said, kissing just above my pubicbone
“I can’t.”
“Would you prefer I just hurt you so that it’s painful? Isthat what you want?” he seethed, obviously insulted by myrejection.
“Yes,” I choked.At least,then I wouldn’t feel bad about enjoyingit because I knew this way I wouldn’t. He got up and smacked me.Again. God, I was good at that.
“What the fuck’s the matter withyou?!”
“What difference does it make?! You’ve already raped meseveral times! Why should now be any different foryou?”
“Because you’re deliberately choosing pain over pleasurebecause you can’t let yourself enjoy what I so clearly want to giveyou. I have more pleasure to give than pain, Jaden, if you’d onlyjust give in to it. Stop being so goddamnstubborn.”
“Why? Why do you have to make me enjoy it? It’s justcruel.”
“Jaden,” he said now softening his voice and placing his handgently against my face. “You’re doing this to yourself. You need tolet go. Stop holding on to something that has no meaning for youanymore.Yourfocusneeds to be on me now, and what I want to do to this beautiful bodyof yours,” he said, brushing his fingers over myskin.
“But …”
