I’m mesmerized by the way his body undulates under me, seeking my hand. The fear of my darkness hasn’t left, but I trust Gray if I lose control. I search my mind and body for any of the telltale signs it’s going to make an appearance and find nothing.
I’m consumed by him, and there’s no room for anything else.
His skin’s on fire, and the pink has turned to red. I catalog the intensity of every sound coming from him to decipher the patterns he likes best. His favorite seems to be a caress, and a thunk, followed by two sharp strikes in the middle of his cheek.
Gray has opened up an entirely new world for me. I’m high from touching his skin, the sting on my hand, and the rush of lust flooding me. My head has gone floaty, and I tingle all over.
“Tinny, please,” he pleads. “I need to come.”
He’s so pretty as my fist circles his cock.
I barely notice his release in my hand until he whimpers with more pain than pleasure.
“Sorry.” I rest my forehead on his spine to catch my breath.
Removing my hand from his cock, I bring it to my mouth and savor his release. He watches me over his shoulder with hooded eyes.
“Good?” he asks.
“The best.” I dip so my tongue swipes his cock.
He swings a leg over my head so he can sit up facing me. “Now it’s your turn.” His mouth swallows my desperate length.
Gray sucks once and I explode, no longer able to hold back. He drinks me down, suckling me after I finish.
We collapse into each other’s arms and make our way up to the pillows.
“How was that?” He searches my eyes. “Did the darkness creep in?”
The grin that takes over my face makes him laugh. “I like our system of checking in.” I palm his ass. “Seriously, thank you. I never imagined how different it would be to fall in love with my best friend. Besides better sex than I could dream of, you’ve given me your trust, both with your fears and your body.” I stiffen with my admission of love, but he doesn’t take it seriously.
“So, you’re saying my dick has magical powers?” he teases.
“Magical healing, you’ve cured me of the darkness. I don’t think it will be a problem anymore,” I say with confidence and hope.
His face becomes serious, and my heart flip-flops with anticipation.
“Tinny…” His fingertips graze my cheek. “I’ve loved you almost all my life, and I’ve fallen hopelessly in love with you.”
My face splits into a grin so wide my skin tightens. “I love you too.” I say the words, and my heart is so full it could burst. But then it’s hard to breathe, my vision gets blurry, and I hear my name echoing in my ears.
Chapter 28
Grayson
Austin has a panic attack as soon as he tells me he loves me, and at first I think he is being a smartass. I’m trained for this, but the sight of my big hockey player boyfriend struggling for air is unnerving. I rub his sternum and speak calmly to restore normal breathing.
The seconds pass as long as hours as his anxiety decreases.
“I’m here. You’re fine.” I hold him down as he tries to leave the bed.
“It’s here. Everywhere.” His eyes are wild with panic.
“Will King be all right to walk out on the ice for Pride Night?” I blurt out the first thing that pops in my head that will redirect his brain. My man puts himself last, and I can use it to my advantage.
“W-w-what?” he sputters, but he’s able to take a full breath in.
“I’m worried about King. Are you?” I model deep breathing, holding his hand above my heart with my other one on his.
