“I don’t understand,” I finally manage to breathe, my grip tightening near his base again. “Help me understand.” It’s a plea that brings tears to my eyes. Because all of this is foreign. I’m trying to give into my animal, to do what she’s demanding I do.
However, feeling his erection in my palm has oddly grounded me in reality.
He’s so much larger than Canton.
It should be impossible.
Itisimpossible.
He’s not going to fit.
And something about that makes me want to cry.
Or maybe it’s the fear of knowing he’s going to force it that causes my eyes to water.
I feel so weak. So lost. So… sohot.
I groan inside and out.I’m losing my mind.
“You’re going into estrus,” Tieran says, his palm suddenly on my cheek, his thumb wiping away the tear from my skin. “It’s the heat cycle for Omegas, likely caused by you finally meeting your wolf and allowing your Carnage traits to come out to play.”
I shake my head. “Not an Omega.” It comes out as a fragment, my brain incapable of full thought. I’m torn between understanding and demanding he fuck me.
It’s a conundrum that has me whimpering all over again.
And I hate it.
Ihatefeeling weak.
“I’m not this wolf,” I say out loud. “I’m not. I’m strong. I’m… I’m…” A spasm in my lower belly makes me scream, the agony ripping through my veins and sending me spiraling back into a fit of lust and need.
The world starts to move around me.
My thighs feel wet and cold.
My heart thuds loudly in my chest, echoing in my ears.
Another scream leaves my mouth, that pain inside splintering into pulses of torturous vibrations.
I’m dying, I think.This is death.
Because it’s killing me.
Those vibrations make it impossible to breathe.
I can’t even scream or beg for help.
It’s a lost cause.
Because all I am now is pain.
Pain. Pain. Pain.
Until nothingness takes hold.
And then… I start to float.
I breathe.
