Rafael's hands went to my jeans, popping the button and shoving them down with my boxers in one violent motion. My cock sprang free, already leaking, and he stared at it like a starving man looking at food.
Then he grabbed my hips and spun me around, pressing my chest against the wall. I barely had time to get my hands up before his body covered mine from behind. His clothed erection ground against my bare ass, and I couldn't stop the sound that escaped me.
"Rafael, wait." I needed to slow this down, to think, to regain some control before I lost myself completely.
His teeth found my shoulder blade and bit down hard. "I’ve waited long enough."
He stepped back just enough to shed his own clothes, and I heard fabric tearing. Then his naked body pressed against mine, skin to skin, and the heat of him made my knees weak.
One hand fisted in my hair, pulling my head back to expose my throat. The other wrapped around my cock from behind, and the angle was wrong, but the grip was perfect, and nothing existed past the sensation of being held, claimed, owned.
"Bedroom." I managed to gasp out. "If Jasper and Diego come back…"
Rafael hauled me away from the wall and practically dragged me toward the small bedroom. We crashed through the doorway together. I grabbed the doorframe to steady us, but Rafael used the momentum to push me forward onto the bed.
I landed on my stomach and tried to roll over, but Rafael's weight came down on top of me. He pressed one hand between my shoulder blades, holding me in place, while his other hand gripped my hip hard enough to bruise.
"Stay."
The single word punched through me. My body went liquid, muscles melting into the mattress. Every instinct that screamed to fight died under that command. I'd never obeyed anyone like this. Never wanted to.
His teeth found the back of my neck, my shoulders, the curve of my spine, working his way down my back like he was mapping every inch of me with his mouth.
I'd never been held down like this. Never been the one pinned and helpless. Every target, every seduction, I'd been the one in control.
But Rafael was dismantling me piece by piece, and I was letting him. Wanted him to. My cock throbbed harder against the sheets, and I couldn't even pretend terror lived anywhere in my body.
His cock pressed against my ass, hot and hard and huge, and panic cut through the haze of arousal.
"Rafael, wait." I tried to twist under him, but his weight kept me pinned. "You can't just... we need lube, prep."
Every muscle in Rafael locked. His breathing was harsh against my neck. Then he rolled us both, pulling me on top of him so fast I barely registered the movement before I was straddling his hips, his hands gripping my thighs.
His eyes were black, feral. "I need—I need to be inside you."
I reached for my discarded jeans, digging through the pockets for the small packet of lube. "Okay. Yes. I can show you how to—"
Rafael kissed me. Hard. Desperate. Then he pulled back and caught my jaw, fingers digging in hard enough to bruise. "Don't perform for me." His grip tightened until I winced. "I can tell you're doing it. Stop."
"I'm not—" The lie died on my lips when he squeezed harder.
"You are." He forced my head to the side and bit my neck. I gasped and tried to squeeze away. He bit down harder, and my resistance crumbled. "I don't want a seduction expert. I want you. The real you. Terrified and vulnerable and mine."
"Rafael—" My voice cracked.
"Say you're scared." He released my jaw and traced the bite mark, blood welling under his thumb. He pressed into it, making me flinch. "Tell me the truth, or this stops right now."
My pulse hammered. For the first time since we'd started, I had no script. "I'm terrified."
"Of what?"
"Of letting you in. Of giving you this." My hands twisted in the sheets. "No one's ever... I don't let anyone..."
"I know." He kissed me again, and I tasted my own blood on his lips. "But you're going to let me. You're going to give me everything. Understand?"
I nodded, but I almost felt like I was floating.
Rafael grabbed the lube from my hand and tore it open. "Tell me how to open you up so I can fuck you properly."
