It was just sex.
My palms instinctively went to her waist, and I gripped her hips tightly before moving her up and down on my cock with a much more punishing pace. She yelped as I slammed her down hard on my dick, impaling her all the way, but the yelp turned into a moan as she ground her clit over my pubic bone.
At least I can still bring her pleasure.
We moved like that for minutes, me directing Gisei’s hips as she moved until I felt her pussy clamp down on me as she cried out, her body shuddering with her orgasm. Now that her needs were seen to, I wanted to get this over with as fast as possible.
But no matter how hard I concentrated, no matter how fast or brutally I moved Gisei, I couldn’t come. The instinct just wasn’t there; I felt a tingling, sure. But there was no desire to release.
“S-s-stand where he can see you,” Gisei breathily called to Faylinn, gesturing with her hand for the Rune Master to move closer. I heard Faylinn mutter a low curse before her boots scratched against the floor. My eyes looked over Gisei’s shoulder to lock directly with the intelligent hazel orbs I loved so much.
Instantly, I felt my release barreling through me and my cock stiffened before I came inside Gisei with a guttural roar.
But the pleasure wasn’t hers.
It was for the woman standing at the door, her beautiful eyes flooded with tears and unspeakable pain.
Gisei cried out before slumping to the other side of the bed in a sweaty pile, cum slipping from her pussy to land on my leg and sheets. Vaguely, I recognized the sound of my bedroom door opening and closing before thebangof my exterior door shook the walls of my bedroom.
I lay in my bed for a moment before grabbing one of the towels Faylinn left on the table and wiped myself, before cleaning Gisei.
This part—the caring of another person—I could do; I just didn’t think I could be intimate with her again. The Bond was solidified and strong within my chest, so there was no need to have sex again anyway.
I opened my mouth to tell her my feelings about it all, but she held up a hand, still panting from exertion.
“I don’t think I can do that again, Mage,” she admitted, and I slumped both in relief and embarrassment.
“Gisei, I am sorry. I wish?—”
“I’m sure you wish a lot of things, General d’Alvey, and I understand why you need me and what my role is. But I do notwant to give my body to a man who is thinking of another the whole time.” There was no hatred or malice in her words, just understanding, and I finally flicked my eyes to her honey-brown ones.
She quirked a small smile as I blew out a breath.
“Thank you,” I said, truly meaning it.
“Have you told her? Does she know?” Gisei asked, and I barked a laugh.
“No on both accounts.”
Gisei hummed thoughtfully as she stretched on the bed before reaching for her clothes.
“From my vantage point, it’s fairly obvious she holds the same affection for you that you do for her. The question is, though, what are you going to do about it?” she sagely asked before slipping into my bathroom, closing the door with aclick.
She does?I’d hoped Faylinn felt for me the way I felt for her, but now it seemed like there were too many obstacles to overcome, even if that were true.
She probably hates me now.
And she’d be completely justified if that were the case.
Chapter 70
Faylinn
Tears flowed down my cheeks and my breath caught in my lungs as I scurried down the hallway, away from Rohak’s room. I dashed them away with the heels of my hands as I cursed my stupidity.
Stupid, stupid, stupid.
I’d let my emotions rule my actions again; let my heart control my head.
