“And if he’s not interested,” adds Lukas, “I am.”
“You are?” This is what finally makes me look at them, my eyes snapping up to meet Lukas’s green ones. Is he just saying that to make me feel better? He’s never lied before that I’ve seen, so he must mean it.
“Of course,” says Lukas, moving to sit behind me, straddling Felix’s shins, and wrapping his arms around my shoulders. “We want to help you cross every item off your list. We just didn’t have it on the schedule for this weekend, so we weren’t expecting you to be ready for it so soon.”
“But it’s the main thing on my list,” I counter. It feels like they’ve been inching me along, and I’m not sure how long I’m going to be in their lives. They graduate in a couple of months. That’s plenty of time to tackle the smaller items, and believe me, I want to check off as many of those as possible with these guys, but that’s the big one and I’m ready.
“Don’t you want to ease into it instead? Small steps to the big goal?” Lukas nuzzles kisses along the side of my neck.
“It’s like finishing the biggest part of the project before knocking out the extra credit,” I tell him. Besides, I’ve already grown more attached to them in the past few weeks than I ever intended. The sweeter they are, the more chance I have of falling for them. And I can’t do that. I need to protect myself. That’s the whole reason I agreed to this whole thing in the first place.
“We still have another event this afternoon,” says Felix, bringing my attention back to him. “We wouldn’t be able to stay in bed the rest of the day cuddling with you.”
Sebastian and Elliot have been quiet this entire time, but now Sebastian speaks up. “It wouldn’t be fair to you, to do that and then have to go back downstairs right away,” he says, shaking his head.
“We want to be able to make sure you feel cared for after.” Elliot’s face is so earnest, I consider caving, but now that my embarrassment has abated, I’m back to feeling like I want to take charge and get my way.
“How about a compromise?” I ask, rolling my hips so I grind against the bulge in Felix’s pants. I’m not playing fair, but I also don’t care. “What if we do it now, even though you can’t stay after, but then we also do it later and you can take care of me afterward as much as you want?”
Felix groans and grabs my hips to stop the motion. “So your compromise is that we get laid twice instead of once?”
“Yep.”
“And there is absolutely no way we can talk you into just waiting until tonight so we can make you feel as special as you are?” His fingers tighten on my hips when I try to rock against him again.
“Absolutely none.” I’ve made my choice, and I’m determined to go through with it. I’m also horny enough that I don’t care about cuddling after, I just need an orgasm.
“Okay,” says Felix, dropping his hands to his sides, freeing me, and his head back onto the headboard. “I guess we’ll fuck you twice today then.”
“Really?” I hadn’t thought they would give in this easily. I lean forward and press my lips to his, the kiss quickly becoming greedy. When I pull back, I’m breathless. “Thank you.”
Felix chuckles, pulling me toward him so our foreheads are touching. “You’re welcome,” he says, his voice soft. “Do you know who you want to be your first?”
“I have to make that decision?” I’d assumed they would have decided this already since they’d planned out everything else between us. Shouldn’t the calendar already have this information? Even if we’re moving it ahead by a few days?
“Of course. It’s a big decision,” says Elliot. “If that means you don’t want to do it today, that’s okay. You can have a few days to think about it, if you want.”
“Maybe next weekend we can sit down and talk about it,” agrees Sebastian.
“Felix,” I say. As soon as the name is out of my mouth, I know I’ve made the right choice. He’s always been so sweet to me, cuddling me that first night at their house and helping me to the shower after Sebastian ate me out so good on the dining room table. And I’m sure he’ll bring that same caring to my first time.
He’s always given and given to me, never once asking for anything for himself. This is my chance to give him a reward for his kindness.
“Me?” asks Felix, shocked. “Are you sure?”
“You.” I lean in and give him a long slow kiss, feeling his cock twitch beneath me. When I break the kiss, I look around to the others, suddenly concerned that they’ll feel cheated, or like I’m playing favorites. “Is that okay?”
“Of course it’s okay,” Lukas says, resting his chin on my shoulder. Elliot and Sebastian murmur their agreement. “It’s your decision, and we all just want you to be comfortable for your first time.”
I turn a little to kiss him on the cheek, and he captures my lips in a slow, deliberate kiss. When it ends, I look over to Sebastian and Elliot, sitting on the other bed. I feel bad that they haven’t gotten any kisses yet, and am about to ask them to come over when Elliot speaks.
“Are you comfortable with us watching?” He sounds nervous, although I don’t know why he’s feeling that way when I’m the one about to lose my virginity with his friend. “Or we could leave, if that’s what you want.”
It’s very sweet that Elliot is offering something I know he doesn’t want to do, all for my own comfort. It’s a shame I’m not interested in dating them, because they’d probably be great boyfriends.
“You can definitely stay.” I climb off Felix, squeezing his hand briefly to let him know I’ll be right back, and go over to give Elliot a hug.
I might want Felix to be the one I have sex with first, but I don’t want any of the others to feel slighted. It’s because they’ve been so kind and attentive that I’m ready to take this next step.
