“She deserves to be happy, Maze. My sister means the world to me and I want her to have her happy ever after, like I did. If you can’t give her that, because let’s face, your past isn’t exactly sunshine, and flowers now is it. It is faceless women and dirty sheets. You need to let her be if are not looking for more.” Oh, feisty Ana is out to play.
“I never thought I wanted more than a quick shag, ya know. Seeing all you fuckers having more, made me want it a bit more, but not enough to stop with the hook-ups. Now that Faith has been put in my life, I know that I need to grow up and stop with the useless fucks and fond someone that will be good for not only me but for her,” I say pointing to my daughter.
“She has a date tonight. Just saying.” Jamie pipes in, smirking at me.
I grin back and stand up, rubbing Faith back, whole Suede stills holding her.
“We’ll see about that. You got her?” I ask Suede and he nods with a smile on his face. “Good.”
With that I walk back to my room and grab the keys to my bike before heading out to find the woman that could possibly be the one to end my wayward ways with the random women.
Chapter four
Zarah
Dropping my bag on the table next to my front door, my keys dropping next to it, I walk over to my cream sofa and remove my thigh high boots. They kill my feet but damn they make my legs and arse look amazing.
Jock comes purring over to me and rubs himself over my legs before jumping up and settling in my lap. His fur is super soft, and white, he is a Scottish Fold and he is my baby, since I got him a year ago.
Tucking my feet under my bum, I pull my phone out of my pocket and send a text, cancelling my date for tonight, giving the excuse that I wasn’t feeling very well, then settle Jock on my lap more, before switching the TV on and flicking to a cheesy Christmas movie. I mean who doesn’t love a cheesy Christmas movie. My favourite Christmas films is Gremlins and Love Actually.
My TV is set next my beautiful log fireplace, with a large wooden mantle, that is covered with a beautiful stretched green garland mixed with fairy lights. I have a large round wreath again with fair lights and some little plastic berries hanging on the wall above the fireplace. My six-foot tree is between the fireplace and the bay window, so you can see the tree from outside. I only add lights and ornaments on my tree, I never add tinsel and always red, white with a touch of silver colour scheme.
I have a stunning Christmas rug on the floor that I bought while on a trip to New York last Christmas, which was a gift from Ana, Ace, and Blair. While I was there, I bought a lush fleece blanket there too.
My phone beeps from the arm of the couch and see my sisters name.
Ana: Are you okay?
Always looking after me, hell I have done the same for her, but I backed off when she got serious with Ace, I knew that he would be there for her no matter what.
Me: I’m good.
Ana: Lovely. Are you still going on your date?
Me: No, I called it off. Not feeling very sociable tonight.
Ana: So, what are the plans?
Me: I am having a cheesy Christmas night with junk food.
Ana: Perfect. Love you.
Me: Love you too.
I bet she is going to make Ace have a cheesy Christmas night when they get home, and Blair is in bed. This some something that we started doing years ago when she got away from her ex-husband.
Thinking of Ace, makes me think of Maze. Bloody Ash ‘Maze’ Maisley. That man does things to me that no other man has, and he has hardly touched me.
What he said back at the clubhouse about me not always being around stung a bit. I know we aren’t anything, but he knows I am around the clubhouse and I help out all the time with the children or whatever event they have going on. I may not be an Old Lady, but they still see me as family.
Knowing that Maze is back at the clubhouse with everyone, fussing over his new arrival, makes my heart ache a little. I thought I would be there tonight to see him bond with Faith, to see him in a dad role, but here I am alone again.
I push thoughts of Maze out of my head on focus on the Christmas film, smiling at how the girl is with the guy, how he goes out of his way to be goofy to make her happy. Maybe, just maybe one day I will get a man that will do whatever he could to make me smile.
Pressing pause on the film I put Jock down and rush upstairs to my bedroom and change into my Christmas plaid sleep shirt, and fluffy socks, before going back downstairs to make myself a cup of hot chocolate and get my cookies out of the cupboard. One good thing about working in a café, is that I always make extra treats to bring home with me, for occasions just like this.
These are the chocolate chip cookies that I am making for the hospital, nut, and gluten free. Yum.
