I used to like it, but when you get really good at something, everyone always expects perfection, and that is a heavy weight to carry.
I used to love it, but I don’t anymore.
My parents want me to play in college and get an uppity degree to become a doctor or lawyer.
I want to go to culinary school.
Do you think I’m brave enough?
– Ev
Fact 5.
I’m fucking terrified of spiders. I’ll scream like a little bitch ifI see one.
Any other creature on this earth, I’ll adopt and love all its days.
Spiders can go fuck themselves.
Will you protect me and kill all the spiders in our house?
– Ev
Fact 6.
I put on a front like I’m happy all the time. A bright light, as you call me.
But there is darkness inside me, Leo.
Inside, I feel like I’m suffocating. I am held to an expectation that I cannot meet.
I’m not allowed to be angry, sad, frustrated. I’m supposed to be perfect.
All the time.
I’m exhausted.
But being near you?
My chest doesn’t hurt as much.
My head is quieter.
I feel lighter because you don’t expect perfection.
You’re my Leora.
– Ev
Fact 7.
I want a big familyone day.
I want my house to be small but my family to be large so that we stay close.
I want to be the dad I never had.
I want my kids to grow up feeling loved for who they are and who they want to be.
