Anger started to bubble in my stomach. She knew she was pregnant with my baby, and she didn’t tell me?
“Why didn’t you tell me you were pregnant?” I snapped at her.
If I’d known, I would never have left the country, and Logan would still be alive. He’d still be breathing.
“Wow, really? Look at you, Sebastian!” Her eyes trailed up and met mine. “Do you really think I’d want to raise a baby with a man like you? The last time I saw you, you were covered in someone else’s blood.”
She was right. I was a fucking mess, and the last time I’d seen her, I’d treated her like shit. What kind of man was I to do that to someone I loved? I wasn’t fit to be a father.
“Our child,” I said softly.
“You lost the right to that when you decided to put the Organisation first. I needed you, and you weren’t here!”
She pushed my chest, causing her to suck a breath in and wrap her arms around her stomach. I gently took her arms, helping her stand back up.
“Don’t, Nyx.” I placed my hands on her jaw; this time, she allowed them to stay. “I’m so sorry,” I whispered.
I was sorry for everything I’d put her through. She should have come first, always, no matter what. I’d abandoned her.
She blinked, tears falling and creeping down her cheeks. I grazed my thumbs over, wiping them away. My heart broke like a shattered mirror that had fallen to the floor. The shards cut me deep from the inside out as I looked at all the pain that filled her beautiful eyes. It felt like I was bleeding out, choking on everything I should have done.
“All I wanted was for you to be there. To wrap me up in your warmth and tell me everything would be ok. But you weren’t. You left me alone, and I don’t think I can ever forgive you for that.”
“I should have been there for you. I let you down. Please, I promise you, I won’t ever leave you again. I can be better. I will be better.”
“I can’t do this anymore,” she whispered.
“Don’t say that.” I rested my forehead against hers as she blinked, releasing more tears.
“We can’t keep doing this, Sebastian. I don’t trust you anymore.”
“I can’t lose you, Aria. I need you more than you will ever know.”
“You lost me the minute you decided to lie to me.”
“Do you want me to beg? Because I’ll get on my knees and beg you to stay.”
With that, I lowered to my knees and gently wrapped my arms around her waist, kissing her stomach softly. She was the only woman who could ever make me fall to my knees. The only woman I would love with every fibre in my body.
It was her, it had always been her.
I couldn’t lose her. I wouldn’t lose her. She was the only thing I had left.
“Please, Nyx. I’m so sorry. Please don’t leave me. I can’t breathe without you.”
“Sebastian.” She placed her hands on my cheeks and lifted my head to meet her eyes. “It hurts to love you this much. I’ve always loved you, my heart has always been yours, but it can’t breathe anymore. I can’t have secrets and lies, not again. I can’t live like that.”
“You promised you wouldn’t leave me,” I whispered as the tears formed in my eyes.
“And you promised you’d always be there.” She kissed my forehead softly, then broke free from my embrace, picked up her bag, and walked away.
Away from us.
EPILOGUE
Sebastian
One Month Later
