There’s awe there too. Penetrating lust. Fervent hunger.
“I thought I wanted to take it slow,” I murmur down to him, teeth strumming over my bottom lip. “But we can do slow later. I don’t think I can wait.”
He stares at my pussy, my lips gliding up and down over his length as I grind myself on him. “I don’t have a condom.”
I push up on my knees, hovering over his lap, feeling the head of his cock bobbing against my inner thigh before I reach down and fit his thick, smooth head at my entrance. “Do I have anything to be worried about?” I ask, squeezing his cock hard enough to make him hiss.
“Haven’t been with anyone in months. And I’ve been tested since.”
“Good. I’m on birth control and I need to feel you.”
With that, I sink down one inch, feeling him stretch me as I do. My head tips back, and his fingers dig in at my waist.
“Jesus Christ, Jules.” He pulls me down another inch, and this time it’s my turn to hiss. He’s big. Thick enough that I need a moment to adjust.
“Can you handle it, doll?” he murmurs, hands moving over my hips to grip my ass.
“Yes.”
“Good, take more then.” There’s a commanding bite to his voice that has my body singing for him as he pushes me down incrementally.
He groans at the sight before him, eyes fixed on where we’re finally joined. “You’re going to take it all, aren’t you?”
“Yes,” I reply, rising to the challenge in his voice as I impale myself on his impressive length with a sharp cry. The sensation of being so full makes my entire body feel hot.
I sigh in relief, finally feeling as close to him as I’ve been craving. Like my mind and body have needed this.
Needed him.
“Goddamn, Jules. You are fucking spectacular, you know that?”
My heart turns to mush at the mere sound of his voice, raw and brimming with wonder. He’s pulling me apart in the best way possible. He makes me want to stay in scattered pieces at his feet if it means he keeps looking at me like he is right now.
I fall forward as he moves inside me. His grip finds my chin, and he kisses me roughly, laying claim to me with his body. Giving me exactly what I didn’t realize I needed.
We move together with a tenderness that takes my breath away, his body molding perfectly to mine. The world shrinksuntil there’s nothing but the heat between us, the steady pulse of connection that runs deeper than skin.
“Jules, you terrify me. Needing you like this… it terrifies me.”
My heart clenches. “I know it does,” I confess, voice thick. Because I do know. I’ve seen what he’s lived with. I know his story. I understand him, and I don’t begrudge him.
“I think…” His voice trails away, eyes fluttering in pleasure as my body goes tight around him. He peppers languid kisses across my chest before quietly confessing, “I want to face my fears for you. Will you let me try?”
I kiss his neck, realizing that, in a way, I’m facing my fears with him too. “Over and over again. Until we get it right.”
I swear his entire body sighs in relief. He melts into me farther than I thought possible. Like he finally feels safe—wanted.
“Thank you,” he whispers softly, pressing his lips to my temple, body moving gently against mine like waves lapping at the shoreline.
Wrapped up in him—in us—I close my eyes and let go. Every fear, every doubt melting away in the wake of how completely cherished I feel. When he whispers my name, it’s not just a sound; it’s a lifeline.
We give ourselves over to each other.
And in this quiet, delicate moment, with rain falling against the window, I know we’re both exactly where we’re supposed to be.
CHAPTER 34
Julia
