He was everything.
“All of it,” I begged.
“Okay,” he laughed softly, then eased me back down to the mattress and grabbed both my hands, pulling them over my head. “Hold like this. If you can’t, I will tie you.”
Fear raced through me, but I wasn’t afraid ofhim. I was terrified of letting go. Of putting myself and my trust into someone else. “I…I need my hands.”
“No.”
“Vanya! It’s how I fucking see, okay?”
“Yes, I know.” He dipped low and licked a stripe over my hammering pulse. “And if you don’t want, is okay. But let me blindfold you, Micah. I will keep you safe, and I will make you feel so, so good.”
Oh god, oh fuck. My cock was dribbling between my legs, hard and aching to be touched. Vanya rocked himself down against me once, then twice before rolling away.
“Wait,” I gasped.
“It’s okay, pretty goalie.” He grazed a touch down my neck, trailing it down my torso before cupping my dick. “I’m just getting what I need.”
I curled my fingers into the sheets above my head, using them to keep myself grounded as I listened to him slip away, padding across the room before the sound of his feet disappeared.
Then I was left with my hammering heartbeat in my ears and the fear that I was going to regret all of this.
Maybe it was a mistake. Maybe I was letting all of this get to me—forcing me to ask for something that really would ruin me. Because he might be good, but then he had power.
He had the ability to tell everyone what he did. What I allowed him to do.
“You’re breathing too fast.”
I hadn’t heard him come back. The bed jostled ashe slid beside me, and something hit the pillow to my left. His body pressed against mine, but instead of taking me into another kiss, he took me by the chin, then traced a finger from between my brows, down to my lower lip.
“Breathe.”
I sucked in a breath and let it out a little too fast.
“I make you panic?”
Shaking my head, I tried to regain my composure. “I…nothing’s changed, right? You won’t tell anyone about this?”
“That we fucked?” Vanya asked.
I swallowed heavily. “That I…that I let you pin me down and…” And nothing else. Yet. But what I wanted was so much more than that.
“I see.” He huffed a small sigh, then swung his leg back over me. The weight of him on top of me was exactly what I needed. I just hadn’t realized it. But it allowed me to take a full breath as he fell down to his elbows.
I could sense his face hovering right in front of mine. It would only take the smallest lift of my head before I was kissing him.
“You want things. Things you’re afraid to say.”
I swallowed but said nothing.
“Did you ask Hunter for these things?”
My face went white-hot. “I…we didn’t get that far.”
“But you asked?”
The truth was, I couldn’t remember. I couldn’t remember what I’d said to him in the heat of themoment. I was babbling because I was nervous and afraid of him and confused about where I was and why I’d let myself be talked into another date with a man I clearly had no business being around.
