“Reminding me of my meds, too? What’s next? Give me a hug?”
“The fuck? Fuck you.”
I laughed. “That’s more like it.”
I stretched to get the meds, pain shooting through me. My ass plopped back down on the front seat. “I need a little help.”
She moaned under her breath.
“Davvero? If I rip my stitches, I’ll slow us the fuck down.”
“I’m not refusing to help, Leo. It’s that fucking nausea again. Maybe I should stop for a sec. I haven’t been able to keep anything down all day.”
“After all you’ve learned about your motherfucking husband, you’re still feeling guilty about him?”
She shook her head slowly, rolling her eyes. “I won’t even bother. Someone like you won’t understand.”
“Someone like me? You mean thepsycho killer?”
“Sick fuck, yeah.” She moaned again. “Shit.” The tires screeched as she stopped to a halt. She tried to rush out of the car a second too late. The sounds and smell of her barfing filled the car.
Shouldn’t you hold her hair back for her or pat her back or something?
I shook my head at the ridiculous question. Why would I even think that?
When she was done—she took a long time I started to worry we’d be spotted—she cursed at the mess.
“We should ditch this car anyway,” I said.
Her head whipped toward me as she wiped her mouth with the back of her hand. “I’m not gonna kidnap another person. It’s enough what you’ve done to the last one.”
I cocked a brow at her. “You of all people should be happy to know I slept with someone else.”
“Sleptwith her? Is that what you call it?”
It was a touchy subject for the Baldi sisters, especially Nicky. “It wasn’t like that. Ravenna has feelings for me.”
“Feelings for you?”
She said she loved me. But I wouldn’t utter it. I wouldn’t remember it. I wouldn’t even mention it to myself ever again. “I made her come four fucking times. That says something.”
“Right. So what? You have the same glorious feelings for the nerd who’s been crushing on you since junior high, whom, by the way, you just kidnapped, bound, fucked and ditched?”
The way Ravenna numbed my pain away with her body invaded me. The way she saw me, the way she begged me, every cell of her screaming, “I’m here with you.”
My vile soul she explored, and it excited her rather than bringing her to her knees in fear. The hand she stretched out for me as she begged me to reach out and hold on while she pulled me into a world that was designed only for the two of us, where we ruled it without guilt or fear or shame of who and what we were or had done.
Do I have feelings for Ravenna?
You didn’t kill her, and you kept her panties.
“How stupid do you think I am?” Nicole snatched me out before I fell in the vortex I should never revisit. “You think I don’t know what’s going on in your sick mind?”
I knew that for a fact. She didn’t and couldn’t know. “What are you talking about?”
“Your plan for my sister,” she said angrily. “Don’t think for a second that I bought what you said earlier about not trying to pursue or hurt her.”
I squinted at her. “Then why did you free me if you think I’m still a threat to her?”
