She snorted despite herself. “You always say that.”
“And I am always right.”
She rolled her eyes, then sighed. “You’re impossible.”
“Yes,” he agreed. “But charming.”
She laughed then, shaking her head as she waved us deeper into the space. “Come. But don’t touch anything.”
The back of the boutique opened into controlled chaos.
Fabric everywhere. Sketches pinned to corkboards. A dress mid-construction, held together with a constellation of pins and intention.
And the model.
I couldn’t look away. Her midnight-black hair fell around a face that seemed to speak without words, and her dark, endless eyes held stories I couldn’t begin to know. Her pale skin caught the light in a way that made everything else fade.
Every line, every subtle movement, every quiet detail felt alive—fragile and fierce all at once, and utterly impossible to forget. Her skin glowed under the work lights, calm and luminous, like she belonged exactly where she was. She stood patiently while the designer adjusted the drape of the dress, serene and unbothered.
I was stunned.
Not just by her beauty—though that alone could’ve stopped traffic—but by the way sheheldherself. Present. Professional. Aware.
Then, just for a heartbeat, her gaze flicked to mine. A single, quick wink.
And just like that, she returned to her patient stance, flawless and unbothered, leaving me with a pulse I hadn’t expected.
I kept my eyes on her just a moment longer than I should have. That wink—so small, so brief—felt deliberate, like a spark meant only for me. Or maybe for no one. My pulse picked up, and I felt the familiar heat rise in my chest, the same one I always tried to smother when I was supposed to be observing, not reacting.
René’s voice cut through the quiet hum of the boutique as he leaned over the table, pointing at a sketch. I forced my gaze back to the conversation, but I couldn’t unsee the model’s eyes, the way they had caught mine, the fleeting mischief behind them.
A stab of frustration hit me. Professionalism. Observation. Composure. I had to remember who I was here for—who I was following, learning from. René. This internship. Paris. Not… distractions. Not fleeting smiles from strangers who could undo a fraction of my focus with a glance.
And yet, the pulse lingered. I felt it at the back of my neck, in the subtle tension between my shoulder blades, and even under my fingertips as I clenched them at my sides. I didn’t move. I didn’t breathe differently. I just let it sit there, coiled and impossible to ignore.
The designer—Camille Moreau, it took me a minute to catch her name and match it with the logo on the back wall—moved with the kind of controlled elegance that made every gesture feel intentional. Compact, athletic, toned, like she could have been a dancer or a sprinter, her presence filled the space without trying. Her skin glowed warm and golden under the lights, and her sharp cheekbones and expressive eyes gave her a natural authority. I kept thinking of Halle Berry—sleek, strong, graceful, and impossibly magnetic—even as she pinned and adjusted fabric with calm precision.
I caught René’s sharp glance out of the corner of my eye. He wasn’t looking at me either—of course he wasn’t—but I felt the scrutiny anyway. Every moment in his presence felt like anassessment, and the model’s wink only made the edge of that scrutiny sharper, more aware.
I swallowed and straightened my shoulders. My hands relaxed. I could acknowledge the thrill without giving it away. I could observe without reacting. That was what he’d been teaching me all along. Not just how to see—but how to see without being seen.
I exhaled slowly, quietly, and let myself sink into the rhythm of watching, learning, absorbing. The model returned fully to her work, flawless, untouchable, and suddenly I realized something. I was here to survive this world, not to participate in its flirtations, and the line between awe and distraction had to remain mine to hold.
I stayed patient, steady, invisible. And for the first time that morning, I felt a flicker of real confidence. I didn’t lift my camera. I didn’t speak. I watched.
René and the designer talked shop in low, fast French. Cuts. Lines. Movement. How the fabric would photograph versus how it lived. He gestured with his hands, sharp and precise. She argued back, unapologetic. They respected each other. That much was clear.
I stayed quiet, absorbing everything.
This was the lesson.
Not the yelling. Not the tests.
This.
Where taste lived. Where talent breathed. Where seeing mattered more than saying. As I stood there, invisible and wide-eyed, I knew, without doubt, that this was exactly where I was supposed to be,learning.
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