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Ten minutes is a start. I’ll take it. I miss you, Flash.

My throat tightened.

I forced myself to breathe.

That night,I tried to build the ten images.

Not the kind that proved I knew how to expose correctly. Not the kind that could be sold.

Images that cost me.

It sounded poetic until you actually had to do it.

I opened folders. Scrolled through weeks of work. Everything looked clean. Competent. Controlled. Distant.

Mischa’s voice slid into my head:A computer could generate it.

René’s:Technique becoming camouflage.

Andhers, earlier today, warm and quiet.Don’t forget you’re a person.

I stared at the screen until my eyes blurred.

Then I openedextras_misc.

The folder name made my stomach twist like shame.

There she was—laughing. Unposed. Alive.

I hovered over it.

My cursor trembled once, barely noticeable.

I added it to a new folder.

Ten Images — Friday

I added another. A blurred motion shot from the métro where someone’s hand reached for someone else’s and missed.

A reflection in a rain puddle—my own legs, my bag, my pace.

A shot of soup night stairs empty, wine cups abandoned like an afterimage of belonging.

A photo Dominic had taken of me once—my face half turned, startled by laughter, real for a second. It wasn’t “good.” It was honest. That counted.

By midnight, I had seven.

Seven images that made my chest feel too tight.

Three to go.

I recorded Dominic’s ten-minute call in my head like it was an appointment I might forget.

At exactly 20:40, I called him.

He answered immediately.

“Flash.”