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To be fair, I kind of loved that one. A lot. I was going to print it to add to my taped ones on the wall in the bedroom to see if I wanted a larger print later.

Exhaling, I trusted her and dragged the files into a new folder.

“Someone was asking about you yesterday,” she added casually, straightening.

I sent the images to the photo printer before exporting them to my thumb drive. “Who?”

She shrugged. “Didn’t catch a name. They came in after you left for your shoot.”

“Did they leave a message?”

“No—”

I glanced at the time and cursed softly. “Sorry, I have to go. I owe you coffee.”

She waved it off. “Épate-les.”

Wow them.

Mental fingers crossed, I grabbed my bag, ejected the thumb drive so I could stuff it inside, and hurried to the printer to scoop out the images. I managed to do it all without dropping anything then nearly collided with René as I headed toward the door.

He glanced at me as he passed. “You chose the third.”

“Yes,” I said over my shoulder, already walking.

“Hm.” That was all.

I adored that man.

The Sorbonne seemed different today—older, heavier, almost monolithic. The rain darkened the stone and pressed the air close, making the buildings feel less like structures and more like witnesses.

European cities were literally teeming with history. Not curated or cordoned off, not preserved behind glass or plaques you had to choose to read. It was everywhere—layered into the walls, worn into the steps, carried forward by people who moved through it without needing to name it. The past wasn’t something you visited here. It was something you walked through on your way to class.

In the States, history was treated differently. Managed. Curated. The parts people were proud of were polished anddisplayed, framed neatly with dates and narratives that made them easier to digest. The rest—the uglier bits, the inconvenient ones—were quietly discarded or smoothed over, treated like clutter you didn’t need to carry forward. If it didn’t fit the story, it was easier to pretend it hadn’t happened at all.

Here, there was no such editing. No clean version. History existed in full—heavy, unresolved, unconcerned with whether you found it flattering or comfortable. You simply had to live alongside it.

I adjusted my bag on my shoulder and crossed the courtyard with the rest of the students, feeling smaller in a way that wasn’t diminishing. More like being reminded that what I was doing—what any of us were doing—was part of a much longer, messier conversation.

I wasn’t the first student to walk in here in search of art, truth, and the future. I wouldn’t be the last. I was part of a continuous line, the stone beneath my feet worn smooth by centuries of motion.

Today, it was my turn.

Mischa Condre wasted no time.

She stood at the front of the room, arms crossed, eyes sharp and unapologetically bored as the first student fumbled through an explanation that hadn’t been asked for.

“I didn’t ask why you took it,” Mischa said flatly. “I asked what it shows me.”

The room went quiet after that.

When it was my turn, I didn’t say much. I let the images speak, hands steady as I clicked through them. A woman mid-argument on a street corner. A man laughing into his phone,unaware. Light caught wrong on stone, turning the ordinary into something briefly unguarded.

Mischa studied them for a long moment.

“You hesitate less than you think,” she said finally. “But you still apologize with your framing.”

I felt the words land and rearrange themselves. Her words reminded me of René, the critique sharp but not cruel. At the same time, the faintest note of warmth filled the first sentence into a grudging compliment. She wasn’t damning me with faint praise, but it felt like praise all the same.