“That’s what you choose to say, Solana? Right here? Right now?”
“Yes. That is what was on my mind.”
His forehead pressed against mine, noses merging as he closed his eyes and chuckled.
“Just listen… I felt a rush while sleeping. That is why I took a shower, but only to find it was clear… discharge? I think that is the word for the vagina fluids. Yes, discharge. But then, my stomach started cramping. It is still cramping.” I breathed out.
“Baby…” He kissed my lips. “You not about to start your period.”
“How do you know?”
“’Cause I know your period, Solana.”
“But I am cramping.”
His eyes opened. He then reclaimed my lips, crushing our chests together. His tongue explored the recesses of my mouth. His kisses were slow, drugging me, and had my nipples rock hard against his chest. I was sure to kiss him back with as much passion as he was kissing me. As our lips explored, he let my arms free, rubbing his hand in my hair.
That feels so good.
How was it that everything he did felt so good? How was he this experienced?
“Umm…” I moaned before screeching. “Arggggghhhhhhh!”
White, hot pain shot through me. I was no longer seeing Shio. I was seeing the stars above. He said it would hurt. He never said it would feel like I was being split open.My body lifted but could only go so far as he was on top of me. I felt full, too full. I felt packed, like a billion needles had penetrated me from the bottom, and that pain spread all over my body. Whereas everything else felt good, this hurt.
He groaned before saying my name.
“Sh-Sh… It huuuurrrrrts.”
He kissed the side of my face, and I hadn’t known tears were running from my eyes until I felt them in my ears.
“You want me to stop, baby? Or you want me to put the rest in?”
“The rest?!”
How much more could it be?
“Aite, I gotchu.”
I felt him pull out and ease back in, and that made me grab his back. It was no wonder my father wanted me to remain a virgin. I thought the doctors constantly checking me monthly was painful and uncomfortable. This feeling was much worse.
By the time he eased back in, I was in full-blown tears. The pain hadn’t subsided, but I wasn’t crying because of the pain anymore. I was crying because I was doing something I wanted. I was doing something I wanted with the person I wanted it from.
“Solana, baby.”
Opening my eyes, Shio’s sexual face was so attractive. He continued pumping in and out of me slowly as my legs wrapped around his waist, trying to find comfort.
“This… Uhhh. It hurts so good. But I don’t want?—”
“Spanish, baby. Fuuuck.” His mouth covered mine hungrily as his kiss sent new spirals of ecstasy through me. “Spanish, baby. Say… That… Shit… In Spanish.”
“Mhmmm, Shio!”
His pace had increased, and his body had become slick with a light sheen of sweat. I was sure my skin mirrored his, but I could not look to see because I was stuck with my eyes on him as I felt the complicated feeling of pain and pleasure.
“Esto duele tan bien. Pero no quiero que pares.(This hurts so good. But I do not want you to stop.)”
It hurt, but not as excruciatingly as it did moments ago. There was no way I could have endured this with Felipe. The only reason I was not shoving Shio off me was because of how much I liked him.
