“Sorry, I’m just…”So in love with you.And don’t know how to handle it.
“Don’t be sorry.Can we just not analyze this thing to death, please?We can’t let our pasts define us.We have to take the lessons we can from them and move on, so we can become better versions of ourselves.”
This girl was way too smart and sensible for me.Yet I had no intention of letting her go.
“Fine, I’m sorry.Can we just start this conversation over?I promise I won’t act like a maniac anymore… tonight.”
She laughed.“Good to know.How was the show?”
“Great.Mav thought so too.We went out to grab a bite, just got back to the hotel.”
“Is that how you found out Brandon was going to propose to me?My big-mouth brother-in-law told you?”
“I thought we weren’t going to talk about that anymore.”
“You’re right.I was just curious.”
“Yeah, but don’t be pissed.He wasn’t trying to stir things up.He was just trying to tell me he thought we were good for each other.”
“Hmm, I guess I can forgive him then.Because I happen to agree.”
“How was the birthday party?”
“Great!I got to see so many friends I haven’t seen in years.Since our undergraduate days.”
“Nice.”I wanted to ask her if any of her guy friends were there, but even I wasn’t stupid enough to go there after promising to keep my crazy on lockdown for the rest of the night.“I’m glad you had fun.Busy day tomorrow?”
“Always.Not that I’m complaining.It takes a lot of therapists a few years to build a full-time practice.But I got lucky getting into the medical building I’m in.I get a lot of referrals from the doctors and other practitioners, which will help me pay off my student loans faster, so I can save up and get out of this shoebox apartment.”
She was planning her future.Alone.I wondered if she’d consider help from me?Not likely, since I was sure her sister and Mav had already offered and she’d probably turned them down.
“Taz?You still there?”
“Yeah, sorry.I was just thinking.”
“About?”
“You could move in with me.”I wasn’t known for being impulsive, but this felt right.“I mean, I’m going to be travelling a lot, and I want us to spend as much time together as we can, when I’m home.”
She laughed.“Babe, I love you.But didn’t I just say we’d gone from zero to a hundred in ten seconds, with this relationship?We need to slow down.Chill.Give ourselves a chance to get used to being a couple.”
“So, you don’t want to move in with me?”There was a slight edge to my voice, which I hated.She was being totally reasonable.Logically, I knew that.But I wanted her in my bed every night, and that had nothing to do with logic.
“Maybe, eventually.We’ll see.”
That was the most non-committal response I’d ever heard.And I hated it.“Yeah, sure.”
“Please don’t be offended.I’m just?—”
“It’s fine.I get it.”
“Tomorrow’s a travel day for you, right?No show?”
“Right.We’ll be heading out in the morning.Should be in Pittsburgh by mid-day.”
“I’ve seen the videos of your last two shows.You were amazing.”
“Thanks.”I’d gotten calls from my folks, my sister and my nephews singing my praises too.As well as the team at Spencer.And my buddies had called to bust my chops.But I hadn’t heard a word from Quinn.Not that I was holding my breath.
