Orian is quick to add his two cents, as always. “And what events might occur at your next meeting?”
Shooting him a glare, I answer truthfully. “I don’t know.”
“Oh, yousoknow.” Raya giggles again.
They exchange a glance, which only makes the warmth in my cheeks ignite to a burning flame. Even without words, I know what they’re thinking…because I’m thinking it too.
“Fuck him.” Orian winks at Raya before shooting me a finger gun. “Like I recommendedearlier.”
Raya nods in an almost sympathetic way. “I think you should, too. It’s for the best.”
Simply kissing him was sending me damn near into a frenzy. It took everything in me to control my urges. I don’t want to scare the man. He’s important, though I still haven’t really graspedwhy.
“For the best?” I repeat, rolling my eyes.
She cocks a brow, a rare, devilish expression taking over her face. “Well, when was the last time you got laid?”
My jaw drops.
I can’t believe my best friend would ask me a question she damn well knows the answer to—just to use it against me. The last time I had sex hasnothingto do with Carson, and I know that when—if?—I do fuck him, it’ll be completely different than anything I’ve done before.
Becausehe’sdifferent.
He makes mefeeldifferent.
Special.
Wanted.
“I don’t want to just fuck him and that be that.” I toss my arms out, resuming my pacing.
As I pass Raya, she grips my wrist, stopping me in front of her. “No one said it has to be just sex.”
“Yeah, that’s all in your head, dear sister,” Orian says, relaxing back onto his couch. “Speaking of what’s in your head, you haven’t seemed as…overwhelmedlately.”
I know what Orian is getting at—Carson’s presence hasn’t been controlling my every thought and movement. Even now, I can still feel where he is, but it doesn’t consume me. It hasn’t since I actually spent time with him.
Maybe all I needed to do was everything Ididn’twantto do. If that’s the case, should I start listening to my demonic instincts? To myheart?
He’s already claimed his place within it. We are intertwined so deeply, he’ll always be a part of me. Even if he were to leave, pieces of him would stay with me, and bits of me would go with him.
Shit, do Orian and Raya have a point? Will having sex with Carson actually bring me closer to figuring out exactly what I feel for him…
There’s only one way to find out.
Chapter Fourteen
WHAT HAPPENS AT THE WATERFALL . . .
ORIE
I can’t bring Carson to my house while my brother is staying with me—atemporarything—but a waterfall date? Not necessarily my brightest idea if I want to test out some more…thingswith him.
Luckily for me, there are lots of private waterfalls within the massive conservation area. Using shadow travel, it’ll be quick to get to them, and hopefully from there, everything can happen naturally.
As I near Green Glen Cabins, Carson is just stepping out of one, locking it behind him.
“Hey,” he calls out, approaching me with the same chipper smile that I’m growing quite fond of seeing.
