Xara was being dramatic as fuck. She always wanted things to be about her. If my time and money wasn’t being spent on her, then she didn’t want to hear it. If I wasn’t on my knees kissing her ass, she didn’t want to hear it. Xara was too selfish for me.
“Since when have I shown you anything less than me caring, Xara? You just mad that you ain’t got it like Yani so instead you cause chaos. The fuck is wrong with you?”
“Maybe it’s you… or maybe it’s my hormones causing the jealousy. I’m pregnant again, Trust.”
Fuck! I’m never going to get Yani back now.
Yani
Iwasn’t supposed to be smiling the way that I was, especially with all the bullshit that I was going through with Trust. However, seeing a sweet simple message from Paxton, along with the same things in return that I sent him, had my cheeks high, and my mouth displaying all thirty-two teeth. I had a case of butterflies when he was nowhere in sight.
Saying a simple thank you would’ve sufficed. Don’t ever think you have to go out your way for me. I do the spoiling, not the other way around. I enjoyed everything you sent my way, now I’m hoping you’ll do the same beautiful.
Paxton was showing a side that I had missed dearly from Trust, but I knew that part of my life was over. I couldn’t focus on the next lie Trust wanted to shoot in my ear. I had a business to run, a child to care for, and myself to love. My time of being ignored was over.
“I’m guessing Mr. Hughes has you smiling like a Chesire Cat. What did he send over for lunch?” Sabrina questioned as she waltzed in my office with hers.
“I don’t have the slightest clue.”
I went to open the food bag and instantly felt my heart flutter. It was a meal from my favorite restaurant called Hen’s.The establishment was a soul food-based place, and I enjoyed meals from there quite often. Curiosity piqued on how he knew.
“Wait, how did you know he sent food? You were in the break room.” She sat across from me and started to dig into her container. “Sabrina don’t play with me.”
Throwing her fork down, she gave in. “Fine. He called earlier and I gave him a few details.”
I wanted to be upset with her, but I truly wasn’t. Paxton was giving me a little bit of sunshine in my gloomy ass life.
“Sabrina you shouldn’t have said a word without checking with me first,” I scolded her.
“Well, I tried to, but you shooed me away, so I gave him what he needed. It made you smile though, right?”
“Yes, yes it did,” I said nibbling on my bottom lip.
For some reason, I focused on the fact that another man made me smile. For so long, I thought only Trust could make me feel special, but I was wrong.
“Are you and Trust working things out?”
I rolled my eyes like it was second nature. I was so tired of talking about him. The heartbreak from Trust was taking a toll on me.
“Nope. He has a family to tend to. I wouldn’t dare tear him away from his duties.”
Finally opening my food tray, I dug in and felt instant satisfaction. Those greens were delicious and the way the candy yams hit that macaroni and cheese… chef’s kiss. He didn’t want me to go all out for him, but I planned on sending him more gifts. In my mind, we were in the middle of a game called Tag and I was it.
“How do you feel about everything? Do you miss him?”
I missed everything about Trust. He was all I knew for over a decade of my life. We grew together and started a family thatneither one of our parents thought we could have. I was invested but it was clear that he wasn’t.
Trust called my phone several times throughout the day and texted the entire day. Me leaving shouldn’t have been the only way for him to notice us. Suddenly, he had so much free time for Brendon and me. He was always suggesting things for us to do together or asking if he could stop by. I was being petty, but my response was us having something else to do. He should’ve showed that he cared when he had us.
The family we once shared was everything to me. We were no longer one, and I found myself crying randomly during the day from how much hurt he bestowed upon us. Brendon and I didn’t deserve to be treated like trash but it was nothing we could do besides move on. He quit asking for Trust a long time ago so him being out of the house officially, didn’t faze him.
“If I’m being honest, then yes. I miss him so much.” I didn’t know what came over me, but I burst into tears. I had such a huge attachment to Trust that the detachment was painful.
Sabrina dropped her food and rushed to my side. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to —”
Shaking my head wildly, I stopped her from apologizing. My drama was unfolding and no matter who asked or spoke on it, I was going to be emotional about it.
“It’s okay. It’s truly not you Sabrina. It’s just… it hurts. I can’t explain the love I have for that man. He wasn’t supposed to do us like this.” I took the Kleenex she was offering that she grabbed off the table and cleaned myself up.
