I couldn’t control the smile that surfaced. I wanted some real time with Paxton, and he was granting it.
“She’ll let you. The way this parking lot just heard her screaming yo’ fuckin’ name, she better not decline shit.”
Embarrassed and ashamed was all that lingered around me. I buried my head into Paxton’s chest to hide the fact that I lethim go down on me in such an open space. He shielded me by wrapping his arms around my shoulders.
“Thank you Dawn,” he said while doing a low chuckle. I stood wrapped in his arms until he told me the coast was clear.
“Oh my God, that was so embarrassing.”
“Nah. Your people just funny as hell.”
Stepping back, I took a good look at him and felt all warm inside. There was a time when I wouldn’t dare let another man touch me or breathe the same air as me other than Trust, now I was doing damn near everything under the sun with Paxton and I felt good doing it.
“I’ll go out with you but don’t make me feel like a fool. I’m actually starting to like your big-headed ass.”
“Yo’ head bigger than mine Ms. Hart. Just answer your phone for me when I call.”
“Answer me this. How did you know where to find me?”
“Honestly, I was here for a meeting, but the second I saw you I dismissed my client and took a rain check. I missed everything about you, so I seized the moment.”
Nodding, I smiled and intertwined our fingers. “I think you should keep seizing.”
He’d already given up the tongue, now I was fending for the dick.
“I’m with that.”
Trust
Imissed my wife. There was no other way to put it. All that sneaking around got me caught up and in a relationship I never wanted to be in. This was a default kind of situation, but I was thugging it out.
Xara was nothing like Yani and it showed daily. So much nagging and wanting to know every move I made was getting on my last good nerve. Like now, we were at the doctor’s office checking up on the baby and she was still down my throat about some bullshit. I couldn’t catch a break from her. All that bullshit she spilled about letting me do me and still accepting it was just that… bullshit.
“Xara I’m tired of talking about this.”
“You only tired because you know you wrong. She left your ass and you still blowing her shit down as if y’all still together. It’s been months, Trust.”
“Bi… She has my son, Xara. Stop making this all about you.”
When Yani threw in the towel, it crushed the fuck out of my pride. I knew me and her was locked in for life. She was my ending, and I gambled the hell out of our bond with the shit Xara and I had formed. The grass wasn’t greener on the other side, and I learned that quickly.
Nobody knew the aggravation I held on a daily with this girl. She wanted me to give her what I gave Yani, but little did she know, Yani put more into us than I ever did and that was the reason we gained ten years together. I slacked often and she picked it up with ease. I owed so much to Yani, and I was working toward repaying her without Xara’s knowledge.
“Nigga all I see is her name in your call log. You don’t even call or check up on me like that. I’m the one pregnant with your kid, again, and you more focused on what the fuck she got going on.”
“Where the hell is this damn doctor at?”
Suddenly, she burst out into tears. This was something she did when she knew shit was getting out of hand and I wasn’t feeding into her argument. I looked at her and shook my head from side to side while rolling my eyes.
“Why am I not good enough for you, Trust? You got me stressing so damn much knowing that could hurt the baby.”
“Spare me the dramatics, Xara. I’m with yo’ goofy ass ain’t I? You causing all this chaos for nothing. Focus on you and shit would be good. You stressing yourself out. Don’t put that shit on me.”
The doctor came in putting a halt to the conversation at hand. Xara always flexed for her coworkers as if she had the perfect relationship. We were far from that.
“How’s my favorite couple?” Dr. Wales questioned.
I scoffed and shook my head once more. I had to get the fuck away from Xara and her over the top theatrics. She had them fooled and that didn’t sit right with me. I wasn’t a perfect nigga so all this fake shit she fed them was bothering me.
