“Warning, her ass loves social media so don’t be surprised if you see videos of yourself floating around.”
I chucked at his heads up. I wasn’t a fan of social media, but I didn’t mind. Plus, I was turning over a new leaf and trying newthings, so I didn’t have an issue with her showing me off. Hell, it would let the world know who had her brother occupied.
“No biggie. Tell her I’m down. There is something I wanted to discuss though. Just so I can have some clarity.” He nodded giving me the go ahead. “What are we doing?”
“What you mean?”
“In my head we’re building toward a relationship. I don’t want to say we’re together because of what I just dealt with, but it feels like we are. We don’t have to be exclusive until we’re both comfortable, but I would like to be the only woman you’re giving your time to.”
I was asking for a lot because as a single man he was free to do whatever he pleased. My request would dictate how he moved as an unclaimed man.
“That’s already happening beautiful. You’re not ready to call what we’re doing a relationship yet and I get it. I won’t rush it, but all I ask is for you not to treat me like a piece of meat. If I wanted a fuck buddy, I’d go get one.”
I nodded and removed myself from his chest. I had finally found the strength to stand so I could wash off tonight’s events. I stood and my legs felt like noodles. He wore me out entirely.
“I’m going to shower, you should join.”
He didn’t think my suggestion over. He was up on his feet beating them to the bathroom. He started the water as I stood in the doorway watching his every move.
Paxton was too damn fine, and it wasn’t hard to see his gentleman ways. The way he handled me in the bed was so rough but also so delicate. He never once had me in a position that hurt me or caused me any discomfort. It seemed as if he learned my body and what all I could take in such a small amount of time.
His chocolate skin was everything to me. For the longest I thought light skin men were the only ones for me, but I quickly learned that chocolate on top of chocolate was the perfect mix.We looked good together and when we were out in public, those kinds of compliments never stopped.
“You know you fine as hell, right?”
“And you’re a beautiful being yourself baby. Come on, the water’s ready.”
A smile graced my face, and I couldn’t contain how he made me feel. I felt comfortable and relieved when I was with him. Paxton gave me mature, confident, and knowing vibes. Like whatever he did he was always sure about it. Almost like he never second guessed any decision he made. I wanted to be like that, especially when it came to him.
I couldn’t lie. I was still harboring feelings for Trust and was unsure on whether I was spending time with Pax to forget him or actually move on. I loved that man for ten years. He wasn’t easy to escape by a long shot.
One of the reasons why I haven’t given him time to get Brendon from me directly was because of how I still felt. He was still in my heart, and I wanted Paxton to erase and replace him completely. It was just taking time and I didn’t want to play with Paxton’s feelings.
We stepped inside and he immediately wrapped his arms around me from the back. The safeness he provided was one I didn’t get from Trust. However, Paxton didn’t let me go a second without securing me in his embrace. I felt like a priority with him.
“Have you ever experienced love before? Like real love?”
A kiss was placed on the top of my head before he answered.
“I have. I was engaged actually. Her name was Thalia, and we shared a daughter by the name of Tiana.”
“I thought you said you didn’t have any kids, Paxton?”
“I don’t, well, not anymore. I lost both Thalia and Tiana in a car accident. We were on our way home from a family outing when a drunk fireman crashed into us and proceeded to carryus down the street for half a block. Thalia was killed instantly, and Tiana died in surgery. Me becoming a millionaire was from their death. I sued the city, and they gave me 3.4 million dollars. I flipped it and became a billionaire. There’s not a day that goes by where I don’t think about them. I was depressed for years not knowing what to do. If it wasn’t for my sister Patience coming and being with me day in and day out, I probably would’ve joined them. I was in a dark place when I lost them.”
Paxton shared his story and tears cascaded down my face. I was devastated behind a cheating ass nigga, but he lost everyone that meant something to him. Our pain wasn’t the same.
Hearing that only made me want to retract what I said in the bed and give him genuine love. He deserved it more than I did. Everything was taken from him in the blink of an eye.
“Baby I’m so sorry you had to go through that.”
“Don’t sweat it beautiful. God don’t make mistakes, right?”
I had to take that in for myself. Him revealing the type of man Trust was, was him telling me to get the hell on and focus on myself. In this moment, I understood that. Although my heart was still attached, I knew I had to get from under his thumb and think clearly for once.
“Right babe.”
A comfortable silence surrounded us, and we began to wash ourselves up. He let out an earful and I was sure I would have to eventually let him know exactly how me and Trust were. I gave him a brief summary of us but never any real information. I tried not to talk about Trust because he was and still is an emotional topic for me.
