“Come home soon,” she had said. “I can’t wait to see you.”
She was thinking those same words as a cheery nurse led her from the waiting area to the private room in the new wing where her mother had been moved.I can’t wait to see you.“Mom is really looking great,” the nurse said. “She should be able to go home soon.”
Robin felt that spark of hope within her growing as she approached her mother’s room, guards stationed outside the opened door, the curtain drawn behind it. She could hear her mother speaking to someone—a man, a doctor probably, her voice stronger and clearer than it had been the previous day. “I think so,” Mom was saying. “But I don’t want to commit to anything if I’m not certain.”
Soon, she’d be coming home with Robin and Eric. She’d stay with them for as long as she needed, and they could figure out their lives, postshooting, post-Dad. They could settle into their grief together, help each other through. It wasn’t a situation she would have imagined inspiring hope within her in the past, but that’s what life does. It throws things at you. You adjust and scar over because that’s how you survive.
You bend, or you break. There are no other choices.
She started to push the curtain when one of the guards stopped her. “Just a minute, ma’am.” She looked at him. He was young, with good posture and rosy cheeks. He was in full uniform, though his hat was off, revealing a light blond military haircut that sparkled under the flat hospital lights, as though someone had sprinkled glitter over the top of his head. “Mrs. Bloom is being questioned.”
“She’s what?”
“And this was around what time that you returned?” said the man in her mother’s room—not a doctor. She recognized the Jersey accent. Nick Morasco.
“Probably eightish?” her mother said. “I was out for around half an hour. Not long.”
“And you can’t be positive,” said a different voice, louder and higher pitched, “whether or not this handsome guy was at your house, talking to your husband?”Baus.
“Oh hell no,” Robin said.
“Robbie, is that you out there?”
“Yes, Mom.”
Robin moved the curtain and stepped into the room.
“Ma’am,” the guards said in unison, but Morasco stopped them. “She can come in,” he said.
Robin’s mother was sitting up in bed in her hospital gown, the color back in her cheeks. “Hi, honey.”
Robin moved past the two detectives to hug her mother, Renee’s grip even stronger than it had been the day before. On the tray in front of her was Quentin Garrison’s headshot, pulled from the NPR website and blown up. Robin stared at it as she pulled away. She knew she probably shouldn’t say anything, but she couldn’t help herself. “Do you know him, Mom? Have you seen him before?”
“He looks familiar, I... think?” Renee said it, not to Robin, but to Morasco and Baus. “I wish I could remember more of that night.”
Baus said, “You’re pretty sure he came by the house, though?”
“No,” she said. “I’m not sure of anything.”
“I understand,” Morasco said. “If you remember anything at all, call. Please. Any time of the day or night.”
Renee tried to hand the photograph back, but Morasco shook his head. “Keep it. Maybe it will jog your memory.”
They said their good-byes and left the room, and for a few moments, there was just quiet. Robin’s mother stared at the photograph.
“You don’t remember?” Robin said.
She shook her head. “Your father and I,” she said quietly. “We had a disagreement. I left to get some fresh air. I remember driving home. After that... nothing.”
Robin looked at her, thinking of her father’s sad voice on the phone, the ashtray full of cigarettes, the handwritten names on analyst’s notebook paper. Quentin Garrison. Kate Sharkey. April.Have we been good parents to you?“What was the disagreement about?”
Her mother looked at her, her eyes pinkish, the color fading from her cheeks, as though that simple question had weakened her. “I don’t remember.”
Robin moved closer. She took Renee’s hand in her own and squeezed it. “It’s all right, Mom,” she said. “You just rest.”
Renee’s hand was icy cold, but of course they’d always been likethat. Bad circulation, but Dad viewed it more romantically.Cold hands, warm heart, he used to say...
Renee said, “You want to know something funny?”
