I could dance. It was what Everly did on stage, and it wowed the crowd, especially when you were with a partner. Her show brought the house down. Doubt hit me, but I pushed it aside. Hades had made me feel more confident and sexy, so fuck it. Dancing could also be afuck youto Blaize and everyone else in my life who made me feel bad about myself.
Everyone else could admire my body and shower me with praises if she refused. “I think you’re right.”
“What’s on your mind?” she asked after a moment. I arched my brow, giving her a confused look. “Kadence, I’ve been a doctor for many years, seen various patients, and learned the signs. Something is wrong.”
I sighed. Of course, my shrink would see the signs. Oh, well. At least I could get real advice. Annika would just tell me to jump Blaize’s bones the first chance I got. “Uhm, I think I’m getting feelings for my boss.”
“Tell me about her.”
Like the first time we met, I word vomited to her, only this time it was about the infuriating woman I was falling in love with. Was it really love if I barely knew her? She was hot, intimidating, and screamed dominant. Blaize was not the picturesque of niceties when we met, and she accused me of sleeping with Hawke more than once.
I couldn't explain it. Love was something I seldom experienced. I fell in love, but I never had the world-burning desire that came from being loved back. My heart raced at the thought of her, sending electricity through me. The moments we’d had, even though they got ruined because of her ill will towards me, seemed to make time stand still. I almost had a full conversation with her at the bar that night, and she showed me the smallest ounce of vulnerability. It didn’t last long, but I saw a part of her that was real.
Or maybe I was just crazy. I’d always been told I had a wild imagination, and maybe this was something I was imagining. A future with a woman who hated me, and I still couldn’t fathom why.
“Are you scared of falling in love with her?”
I leaned on my elbows. “The last person I was in love with ruined my life…Y’know, I loved Disney movies as a child. The idea of falling in love and living happily ever after, but I don’t think that’s in my future. I’ll always be used and desired for my body, but I’ll never be admired for the depth of my soul or the love in my heart.”
“Everyone is worthy of love, Kadence. Regardless of their past or imperfections. Everything you went through does notdefine the woman you are becoming. Never let someone make you feel like nothing.”
I bit the inside of my cheek, feeling tears in my eyes, but I forced them back. “I know. I don’t know what it is about her, but I’m drawn to her like a moth to a flame.”
“Then follow your heart's desire and don’t be afraid.”
After another twenty minutes of talking about my fears with Dr. Williams, I finally left with a new perspective. Blaize wanted me just like I wanted her, and even if we only had one night together, I was going to get her to cave. I no longer wanted to be terrified of the feelings in my chest. Would I fall to my knees and confess my undying love to that woman? Absolutely not.
But will I hide myself to spare her? No. I was going to make Blaize mine one way or another.
CHAPTER 43
BLAIZE
Hunter pushed my door open, stepping into my office uninvited once again as she strutted to my desk, her boots colliding angrily with the wood flooring. “What did you do to Kadence to make her want to dance?”
I cocked a brow. “Huh?”
“Kadence came to me tonight in her skimpy outfit, that makes her look hot as hell I might add, saying she wanted to dance.”
“I have no idea what changed.”
She smirked. “I’m pretty sure it’s because of you. Drew said she’s been sulking since you rejected her on Friday.”
“She decided to share our details with the club?”
“Well, considering you fingered her in front of everyone and then had Annika clean her arousal off, I’d say everyone fucking knows, but not the part with her begging to fuck you. She confessed to Annika, and then after her little confession, she played with her pretty little pussy, thinking about you.”
I glared daggers into her. “What are you trying to do, Hunter?”
“I’m not doing anything. You need to get that stick out of your ass.”
“I should kill you.”
“But you won’t, because you know I’m right and you need to let someone into that icy heart of yours.”
“Why don’t you follow your own advice and find someone for your heart, huh? Instead of worrying about mine.”
She walked to my desk, placing her palms down and leaning forward. “This isn’t about me.”
