I hate that I check for a new message from him before going through the others. Disappointment lingers while I reply to a few of my subscribers and make notes of what they want to see next. Most of the requests are boring, like use a vibrator or wear your hair up in pigtails while wearing a short skirt without panties. Role play is not my thing, so I decline a few of those suggestions.
Once I’m finished, I hover my mouth over the chat withQuiethours. Then, I huff and click on it.
I ignore the still of the video and glare at the last message I sent, willing a reply to appear. “Come on. Don’t be shy now.”
My fingers fly across the keyboard when I give in, throwing a metaphorical fuck-it to the universe.
Crushedvelvet
So, is the only thing you liked about the video the lingerie you paid for?
I send it and immediately cringe at how desperate I sound.Brielle Hayesanddesperateare not often put together in the same sentence, but Jesus, that’s exactly what I am. If this isn’t yet another sign that I’m going through something right now, I don’t know what is.
The three dots that flash from the left side of the chat surprise me enough that I gasp. My teeth sink into my cheek as I watch and wait for words to appear.
Quiethours
You know that isn’t the case.
Oh?
Crushedvelvet
Maybe I do, but it still would have been nice to receive confirmation.
Quiethours
I’ve watched your video a dozen times since. Thoughts of it have distracted me in the real world, Velvet. Is that answer enough?
My skin warms as I release my cheek and smirk.
Crushedvelvet
Well, all you had to do was say that.
Quiethours
Were you not already aware of how well you did for me?
Crushedvelvet
At the risk of sounding arrogant, of course I was.
Quiethours
You were craving praise, then, were you?
My tongue glides across my bottom lip, wetting it. I pull the blankets down my body a bit, needing a bit of cool air.
Crushedvelvet
Guilty. Who doesn’t like praise?
Quiethours
I’m the last man you should be wanting praise from.
Crushedvelvet
