I wiped the tears that had fallen down her cheeks as she said, “Thanks, Arlie.”
When the car stopped, I noticed we were at the arena. I took a deep breath and tried to mentally prepare to put on a good show. I wasn’t the opening act, but I wasn’t the main attraction either. This was GloRilla’s tour. I was happy to even be on this stop. I wished I was going everywhere with her. That would really get me the exposure I needed.
My record label was full of shit. They barely promoted my shit. The only reason I was getting any airplay was because ofmyefforts. My manager, Maj, and I went to radio stations, made appearances at clubs, and went to music stores. We hit the ground running, promoting the fuck out of it to get my name out there. I had some fire shit on that album, and I refused to let it collect dust. When I hit the top 20 on the hip hop charts, I was beyond happy.
Once that happened,thenthey wanted to take my shit seriously.Fuck them.My first album did absolutely nothing. I’d made appearances on other people’s shit and that got me a little traction, but not nearly enough to warrant an influx of people checking for me.
When I got to the dressing room, I took a deep breath. I was no longer thinking about Kimaji’s issues. I was thinking about the shit Graham put on me earlier. I had a permanent vision of him hovering over me, his chain swinging in my face. The man was God’s masterpiece. Although he was older than me, I could see myself submitting to him if that was something he wanted, simply because of the way his dick caressed and fucked up my insides.
Shaking my head, I started concentrating on the music blasting inside the arena. They were playing Trina. I swore she was my favorite female rapper of all time. I shouldn’t have even been listening to her shit, but nothing stopped me from being all in my mama’s stuff when I was younger. The woman was a beast, and I soaked in every bar she spit.
I started bobbing my head as someone knocked on the door. Kimaji went to it and opened it. When Sonya, Sharee, and Exodus walked in, I smiled. I wasn’t expecting them before the concert. However, my smile dropped, and my mouth was open wide when I saw Noah and his brother, RJ, walk in as well. My heart was about to beat out of my damn chest.
Noah’s eyes met mine, and I couldn’t look away. From my peripheral, I could see RJ roll his eyes. Shaking my head, I said, “Hey, y’all! I’m sorry. I’m so fucking shocked and star struck.TheeNoah Brooks Charles is in my dressing room.Shit!What did I do to deserve this honor?”
He chuckled, then his head tilted. “Honestly, something was nagging me to be here. I felt like I was needed.”
I closed my eyes and nodded my head. This had to be confirmation. The man was spiritual and had a close walk with God. I opened my eyes. “Will you have time to talk after I perform? I know y’all probably primarily came for Glo.”
He nodded. “Naw, shorty. I came for you. I like your flow. I’ve seen Glo a million times.”
My body shivered in response to his words as Sonya rubbed circles on my back. I looked up at her and smiled. I was so fucking nervous. When I turned back to Noah, I noticed he had walked closer to me.
“Go out there and cut the fuck up, shorty. I already know you got this shit in the bag.”
I nodded repeatedly. “Thank you. I got this shit. Enjoy the show. I can’t wait to see y’all afterward.”
He smiled, then nodded, and they all walked out. I turned to Kimaji, and her face was red as fuck, and she wasn’t light skinned like me. She wasn’t as dark complexioned as Graham either, but I didn’t think I would be able to notice the red hue that graced her cheeks.
Once they were gone, she screamed. I jumped up and down with her. When I finally calmed down, I said, “This could be the chance of a lifetime. Icannotfuck this up.”
“You won’t. Just go out there and do what you do every time. Leave your fucking soul on that stage.”
“You fucking right. Let’s do this.”
“Y’all good out there, LA?”
The screams were deafening. I had never experienced anything like this. The crowd was rocking with me like never before. There had to be at least fifty thousand people out there. This was the biggest crowd I had ever performed in front of. When the music kicked in for my latest release and the last song I would perform, I widened my stance and began swaying side to side, then went to the crevices of my soul and spit those lyrics like my life depended on it.
I just wanna fuck tonight
Come on through and stroke my pussy right
She ain’t had dick in a minute
Please come through and drop that pole in it.
I began grinding my hips, practically throwing my pussy at the audience, then continued.
I know you gon’ do me right
Have me clawing up your back like I’m in a fight
I know you want this as bad as I do, right
You know I keep my pussy tight
I’m gon’ make you fall in love with me
