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“Will. . . ” He closes the door to my room and leans his back against it as if to lock everyone out or imprison me. “Will you tell Mom if you get sick?”
I clutch a pillow to my chest. “Just leave me alone, okay?”
“Maybe you should talk to Mom and Dad. ”
“And then what?” I fling the pillow off the bed. “Mom freaks? Dad’s disappointed? You and West and Gavin and Jack get on me for being weak? No, thanks. Where was your pity when Jack laid into me the other night because I hadn’t said yes yet?”
“They wouldn’t have asked if they knew you still had panic attacks. ”
Disgust weaves into my voice. “Look me in the eye and tell me that this family isn’t happier because I’m hiding what they can’t handle. ” What I can’t handle.
“Maybe I should tell them. ” There’s an edge of seriousness to his tone that creates horror movie fear.
“You wouldn’t. ” I search for words. “You want Mom happy, just like everyone else. ”
“I know, but I keep thinking of you on that damn bathroom floor puking up your guts. . . . ”
My phone vibrates, and my stupid heart stutters because there’s only one person who would call or text me—Isaiah.
Ethan eyes my cell. “Who’s texting you?”
I grab my phone and try not to shake when I see Isaiah’s name. “West,” I lie. “He’s been having problems with his SUV because he forgot to change the oil again. ”
“Moron,” Ethan mutters then looks at me again. “Think about what I said. At least about the amnesty. ”
“Okay. ” I struggle to keep my focus on my brother and not on the phone as Ethan leaves. If I don’t find a way to control my crazy emotions, Isaiah will only hurt me worse in six weeks when we pay Eric.
Meet me at the dragway at 7. My phone vibrates again with directions.
I toss my cell across the bed and fall back onto my pillows with a loud huff. A demand. Not a request or even a please. A demand. Like he knows he’s all hot and mysterious and how I can’t stop obsessing over him. I shouldn’t go. I shouldn’t answer. I should stand my ground.
The phone vibrates again. With a sigh too dramatic to use without an audience, I kick the phone toward me. I read the words then smother a pillow over my face: bring your car gassed
Because I’m nothing more than a debt. Stupid, stupid me.
* * *
My headlights flash across Isaiah as I park next to his black Mustang. With his back resting against his passenger door and his arms folded across his chest, he waits in the parking lot just like his texts said he would. The gravel beneath my tires cracks, and I hate the thought of rocks kicking up and hitting the paint.
I inhale, then slowly release the air. I’m a debt. I mean nothing to him. I will not lose it. I will not yell. I will be calm and collected and everything other than the crashing emotions and anxiety brewing inside of me. He will not know that he hurt me. I may be weak, but I’m good at hiding how I really feel. Pretending he didn’t break my heart should be easy.
I almost tumble out of the car when the door swings open without my assistance. Isaiah offers a hand as if I need help. Because it’s a strange gesture and one that catches me off guard, I ac
cept and then internally curse myself once his strong hand wraps around mine. Crap. I still like his hands on me.
“Hey,” he says.
He closes my door, and the two of us stand there, holding hands, staring in silence. Well, almost silence; the sound of two engines simultaneously revving gains my attention. Isaiah smirks when I lean to the left to glimpse what’s behind the metal bleachers.
His finger performs this swipe on the back of my hand that sends an electric shock through my body. The blaring lights from the dragway cast a shadow across Isaiah, and I shiver at how comfortable he appears in the darkness.
“It’s a sweet sound,” he says referring to the engines, but all I hear is his deep voice.
I shrug as if I don’t care, but yeah. . . that sound rocks, the engines and his voice. Take your hand back, Rach. He’s playing you. One of his fingers moves slowly against my skin again, and goose bumps rise on my arms. The annoying voice in my head repeats the warning, but I don’t listen.
“I wasn’t sure if you were coming. ” He sounds both a little hurt and relieved. Good. I can’t contain the slight curve of my lips. I showed, but I also stood my ground by refusing to text back.
“You left your jacket at the garage. I’ve got it in the car, but it looks like you found another. ”
