After they hang up, he takes the deepest breath he can manage and tries to calm his rapidly beating heart. Talking to Skyler was like running a marathon with no trophy waiting for him at the end as a reward.
Is he really going to do this? See Skyler again? Face to face? He barely made it through a phone conversation without losing his mind.
But it’s Skyler. And Skyler said he’d like to see him.
Holy shit.
It’s like Trevor’s whole damn life has flipped upside down overnight.
His phone dings with a text from Courtney, who he completely forgot about.You haven’t called me back.
Right. It’s her job to handle this stuff for him, determine the best course of action, tell him what to do. But he doesn’t want to do anything right now. Definitely not before he meets with Skyler.
It’s okay, I’m fine, he types.
We still need to discuss this and decide what to do about it.
We will. I just need some time.
The dots appear on his screen. Then go away. Then reappear. And go away again. When her message finally comes, all it says is,Don’t do anything stupid.
Ha fucking ha.
He’s about to do what might possibly be the stupidest thing he’s done in years. But she doesn’t need to know that.
"BLUE AGAIN"
Song by Trevor Blue
Baby, I’m blue again
Missing you again
Wondering what I could’ve done
To change how this thing ends
Wishing I had done better
If I had been braver
Instead of taking the easy way out
Now my skies are always gray without you
I know I’m not supposed to sing about you
But I’m begging you to put the sun back in my sky
‘Cause I can’t do it on my own
Won’t you please pick up the phone
So the skies are blue again
Baby, I’m blue again
Missing you again
