Page 147 of Our Pretty Darling Psycho

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Containable.

A vulnerable pest to be netted and caged on an island built for exactly that—for keeping pack-less Omegas penned like livestock, beautiful and disposable and waiting to be claimed.

A shame, truly, that not one of them paused to ask who was going to make the winning move.

The blood is already drying on me, tacky and copper-sharp, clashing in the strangest way with my own scent—strawberries and whipped cream and dark chocolate ganache, sweetness gone faintly metallic, a candy shop with a knife hidden in the till. My pigtails have half come loose.

My knuckles ache pleasantly.

Somewhere in the corridors behind me, fifty men are learning the hard way that a high enough pain tolerance and a body trained like a blade make for a very poor thing to underestimate.

I should be exhausted. The medication singing through my veins says otherwise; it has scrubbed the fear clean out of me and left only a bright, humming clarity, the particular euphoria of a plan three years deep finally arriving at its final page. I have never felt more awake in my life. I have never felt more like myself.

I climb the short flight of stairs and look out over the warehouse he has dressed up into some grotesque parody of an oasis.

There, rising from the center of the cold concrete cathedral, is a platform—three shallow steps leading up to what he clearly intends me to read as a throne. The seat is black, lacquered and gleaming, adorned along its edges in twin streaks of vivid neon:acid green and hot pink.

I have to smirk, because those were our colors.

The colors of the only mythology my husband ever bothered to understand about us—Harley and her Joker, the madwoman and the man who made her mad, a love story for people who think devotion and damage are the same thing.

Privately, I always thought Bonnie and Clyde suited our particular unraveling far better:two outlaws, equally lethal, equally complicit, going down together in a hail of their own making.

Yet, that comparison requires a certain symmetry of intellect to appreciate, and my dear husband has never once credited me with being his equal. He cannot decipher the subtleties.

He never could.

It is, as it unravels in real time, the single most expensive failure of his life.

He lounges on the black throne like it was poured around him, twirling a glass of red by the stem, chuckling low at the sight of my unamused expression as he lifts the wine to his lips and drinks.

Even now, even drunk on his own theater, he is beautiful.

That was always the cruelest joke of him—that the man who razed my entire world wears the face of a fallen prince, that monstrousness can come so handsomely wrapped. Once, that beauty made me feel chosen.

The girl I was on our wedding night would have melted to see him sprawled on a throne calling for her. But I am not that girl. I burned her down to the studs and built something far more dangerous in her place, and when I look at him now I feel no flutter, no fear, no lingering ache—only the clean cold focus of a player three years into a game, watching her opponent reach, at last, for exactly the piece she left out for him to take.

“Did you have fun,” he asks, “with your little runaway stunt?”

His scent reaches me across the room, the same as it ever was—bergamot cologne laid over that cold mineral nothing, the smell of a man who has never in his life been refused.

“It was clever, I’ll grant you that much. Killing that little distraction of yours made my life considerably easier, so thank you for the housekeeping. But getting yourself committed to the tightest-security institution in the country? Blackthorn?” He clicks his tongue, disappointed. “That was excessive. Playing at insanity…three years of it…all to keep yourself out of my reach. Are you truly so frightened of being held by me, little diamond?When we both know I already own you, body and inheritance and breath?”

I say nothing.

I have learned the power of saying nothing; it is a blade with no handle, dangerous only to the one who grabs for it.

He chuckles at my silence and lets his gaze drift across the space he has built—and it is a space built for one purpose. Cages line the far wall. A pole gleams under a hanging light. An entire rack of implements I recognize from a lifetime of studying the history of cruel and beautiful things waits along the shadows, every one of them chosen, I have no doubt, with me in mind.

No one would come for me here.

That is the entire architecture of the room:my isolation, rendered in steel.

He installed a pole.

That is the detail that nearly makes me laugh aloud, here in the held breath before everything tips. He remembers the night he stripped me of my worth and made me dance for an audience of his cruelty, the night the first fracture ran through me, and he has built it lovingly into the centerpiece of my intended prison—a monument to the moment he believes he broke me.

He has no idea that I took that humiliation and turned it into power.