I feel like I’m going insane.
He’s stroking my arm lightly, the most innocent touch, but it’s making me feel feverish.
A very different fever from the one I was experiencing earlier this week.
I groan out loud, which makes Sebastian laugh.
That leaves me even more frustrated.
“Why is this so easy for you?” I sit up and look at him, all calm and collected, legs spread out on the couch.
“You think this is easy for me?” he asks, as controlled as ever.
“Well, yeah. You don’t seem to struggle, and I’m about ready to fucking pounce on you,” I say, not bothering to sugarcoat it.
When Sebastian moves closer to me on the couch and takes hold of my hand before whispering in my ear, I feel the goosebumps rise.
“You want to feel just how fucking hard this is for me?”
I barely get out a whispered yes before he moves both of our hands down his body. When he guides my hand to his crotch, I feel his hard length underneath my fingers.
I’m tempted to squeeze it, but Sebastian removes my hand just as I’m ready to play.
That quick feel of him is enough to make me feral for him.
These last few days really need to speed up.
“I’m in a constant state of want around you, Lily. But I’ve had some training in self-control over the years.”
Years.
He’s felt like this for years.
Just like I have.
“Years, huh?” I whisper back, giving him a small kiss behind his ear.
We’re treading the line here, but I’m desperate.
“Yes, years, Lily. Therefore, I’ll make it through these last few days, then we’ll both get what we want.”
Having him speak like that sends another wave of desire through my body.
He seems so confident, so sure, and it makes me wonder how he’ll be in other ways as well.
He finally got the clearance that he could travel to Las Vegas with me, which means we’re just a few days from telling Luke about us.
I can’t fucking wait for that.
“So now be a good girl and lean back on this couch, while we watch this documentary, and I’ll stroke your arm like we’re just a couple of friends.”
“Just a couple of friends,” I grumble, making both of us laugh.
“At least for the next five days.”
~
For the first time since we started our movie nights, we actually fell asleep. Sometimes I’ve fallen asleep only to wake later before heading back to my apartment.
