?“Man I wish technology worked down here so I could take a picture.”
?And the moment is over.
?I pull back and pat my brother’s back. His fated coos. “Awe, how sweet. They’re having a twin moment.”
?“It’s okay, sweetheart,” I chirp. “You can be jealous.”
?She faux frowns. “Bless your little heart thinking I could ever be jealous of you.”
?I grin wolfishly. “We both know you are.”
?Her fake frown flips into a grin as her eyes darken. “And we both know you’re still scared of me.”
?It sends an involuntary shiver up my spine and I slap my brother before pulling him in front of me and pointing at the gremlin.
?“Bro, get yo scary ass girl right the fuck now. Make her stop looking at me like that, I swear she’s about to kill me the second she moves.”
?Both girls begin giggling as they turn back around and start walking. Varian shoves me off and follows after them.
?I chuckle at his response, but it turns nervous because I was not really joking.
?“Let’s go, Percius,” my brother exasperates. “Getting in was easy but you can’t get out without me.”
?Buzzkill.
?I rollmyeyes at his back, but I start following him. He is right. You don’t want to be stuck here alone without a way out.
Twenty-Six
Mavyn – Decim 15
I watch Jullia step through the doors of Stone House with a wave and a promise in her eyes that she’ll be there for me when I come back. She knows absolutely everything now. The first person I’ve told without leaving anything out.
?In all nineteen years of my life I’ve never told anyone. I’ve never illuded it to anyone. And not speaking about it, not talking about it, especially when I’m already alone. . . I don’t want to be alone anymore.
?My soul weeps and I finally turn towards my red devil. I can feel his pain. His sorrow and guilt and helplessness. Even though it’s not his fault and never has been his fault.
?Percius stands off to the side, his hands in the pockets of his pants looking awkward.
?“What were you looking for in the library?” I ask him. He couldn’t have been there just to be there.
?Varian clears his throat and shakes his head. “Not here, bloodsucker. Come here, I’ll take us back to my room. We can talk there.”
?A pressure in my chest starts and when he steps towards me I take a step back.
?I don’t want to be alone anymore.
?My nose needles like it always does before I cry but Ican’t. If I start now I won’t stop and then I’ll want to tell them everything because they’ll tell me I can trust them, but it was never about trust.
?I’ve seen Callahan’s soul.
?I’ve seen Castiel’s soul.
?I have to thank the stars that while Thorne had seen part of my soul he did not see all of it and our fate was not cemented. I still don’t know how it was cemented between Varian and me, but I don’t want to ask that right now. Not with my fated looking like his soul is already ripping apart.
?Taking a deep breath, I suppress it all like I do everything else. I don’t know how long I’ll be with the sun devil and these things we need to talk about. . . they can wait. Right now, all I want is for Varian to stop feeling allthatfor a moment.
?Relaxing my shoulders, I contemplate the best way to start this. Best way to say what I actually want.
