Page 184 of Saint Céline

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I knew Katherine Montgomery long before the terrace.

Everyone at Bellamont did, in the way one knows the architecture of the place itself. Montgomery money was mortared into the walls. Her name appeared on every event program, every donor list, every dusty scholarship ledger. She was brilliant, awkward, severe, and so visibly lonely that most people mistook it for arrogance—arrogance being far less uncomfortable to witness than loneliness.

I knew Céline Martin too, though only in passing.

She belonged to that annual crop of beautiful students Bellamont produced like clockwork: soft hair, expensive clothes, faces arranged to make observers forgive the very existence of privilege. She was charming, popular, socially fluent in a way that felt more instinct than intellect. I had noticed her the way men notice her, the way women watched her, the way rooms warmed slightly when she entered. But she had not interested me. At the time, she disappeared into the crowd of pretty, wanted things—another polished girl in silk, laughing at the correct moments, touching an arm just long enough to make the other person feel chosen. I saw no reason to look beneath the surface. Bellamont was full of surfaces, and most of them concealed nothing worth the effort.

Then Katherine fell that night.

I was already on the terrace when they arrived.

Westgrave Hall had hosted one of those grim departmental receptions earlier that evening—faculty pretending cheap wine in plastic-stemmed glasses rendered obligation tolerable. I had left early. Dean Waverly had begun speaking to a donor about “innovation ecosystems,” and the phrase offended me so thoroughly that I preferred rain.

The terrace was officially closed during storms. The latch had been loose for months. Students used the space for smoking, kissing, crying—sometimes all three at once. I used it because no one with any sense ventured there in bad weather.

I stood beneath the partial shelter at the far side of the roof, cigarette burning low between my fingers, watching the storm blur the courtyard below. Rain stripped the charm from the stone and iron and left only salt and rot.

The terrace door slammed open hard enough to strike the wall.

Katherine came through first, fury radiating from her like heat.

Céline followed, already trying to shape her face into something conciliatory.

I almost stepped forward to announce myself.

Then I saw Katherine’s expression—pure, unfiltered rage and betrayal—and something in me stilled. People are most honest in the seconds immediately after discovering betrayal. They have not yet rehearsed the version of themselves they wish the wound to create.

So I remained where I was, half-hidden by the stone column, cigarette forgotten between my fingers, while the two of them tore each other apart in the downpour.

At first, I assumed it was ordinary. A friendship dying noisily beneath the weight of class resentment, a boyfriend, a stolenopportunity—the usual cruelties of young women who love each other too fiercely and too badly to survive the relationship.

Then Katherine pulled out the passport.

Even from across the terrace, I watched Céline’s face transform. Most people would have missed the shift. I had spent my life cataloguing the exact instant a hidden thing is dragged into the light.

Fear arrived first. Then calculation. Then grief.

The sequence fascinated me.

Katherine was shaking. Rain had plastered her hair to her cheeks, and her voice fractured in ways she clearly despised. She accused Céline of stealing her proposal, her life, her friends, her place in the world. Céline denied some charges and admitted others without meaning to, her talent for sounding wounded while still holding the knife remarkable. She was not innocent. That became obvious almost immediately.

“You had everything; I just took what I needed,” Céline had said.

The words reached me through the rain, weighted with something deeper than excuse. She meant them with her entire body—as a truth so ancient inside her that it had become architecture.

Katherine laughed, a broken, ugly sound.

“And still you wanted more.”

There it was. The true wound. Not the proposal, not the boyfriend, not even the passport—those were merely objects the injury had learned to wield. Katherine wanted to be necessary. Céline wanted to be free of needing her. Both needed the other to confirm a version of reality that would render them less monstrous. Neither could provide it.

When Katherine reached for her phone, I understood what she intended before Céline did. Not only had her hand moved quickly, but her face had shifted from rage to purpose. She hadfound the single action that might force the world back into alignment.

Céline saw it a heartbeat later.

She lunged, and Katherine stepped back.