I hastily wipe my eyes and scramble up from the carpet. I take a breath and dust gross office floor crumbs from my knees. God, what a weird job this is.
Realizing the show is over, executive eyes flutter hesitantly back to iPhones and laptops. I get a couple offair playnods and a broad smile and a thumbs-up from one of the women as I gather my things and say my goodbyes.
Once we’re out in the corridor, the casting director pulls me to one side, close and conspiratorial. It’s a bit closer than I’d ideally like as I’m pretty sure my mascara has run and I’m strongly aware that I need to wipe my nose. But I’m interested to see where this is going.
“That wasfan-tastic!” He clutches my upper arm firmly for emphasis. “Seriously. You in town for a few more days? God, tell me you are?”
“Yeah. Three weeks, actually.” I smile.
“Fantastic. You…missy”—he jiggles my upper arm again for emphasis—“are my new favorite actor.” He says this with a level of intensity that, I’m not sure he is aware, could have been specifically designed to terrify British people. Also, I note, he still has absolutely no clue as to what my name is. I am apparently now calledMissy,not that it really matters. “I’ll call…” He flounders for a second. “Who are you with over here again?”
“Michael Spector at United.”
“Oh, interesting, okay.” He nods knowingly. “I know Michael…” He winks.
God knows what that implies. I’m pretty sure Michael is married with kids.
“Great,” he continues. “I’ll talk it through with these guys, and I’ll call Michael. I wanna get you in for everything on my list. Well, noteverythingobviously. I mean, no one wants that.” He gives me a wry smile. I like this guy. He’s a lot to take, and my upper arm is a bit chafed, but I like him.
“That would be brilliant, Anthoni. I’d love that.” He squeezes my arm again.
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When I get back tothe studio’s car park and start the car the dashboard clock says it’s six-fifteen. Shit. Rush hour. I remember Leandra’s advice. Miguel’s advice. Bugger. I should definitely download a podcast for the trip. I turn off the engine and grab my phone from my handbag. After selecting a couple of things, I find myself opening up my Instagram account.
My breath catches in my throat. I have 1,287 likes since I shared my first post at the photo shoot four hours ago. Holy crap. I look at the follower count: 8,932. I don’t recall how many followers I had before I posted but it definitely wasn’t that high.
I scroll through the small profile photo-circles of my new followers. Who are these people?
Every now and then I see a face I recognize, another actor, a few friends, even weirdly some cousins I haven’t seen in years, but the photos are mainly of strangers. I skim their smiling faces and feel bizarrely elated. It’s an odd feeling, a weird sense of kinship, of acceptance by a new tribe. I suppose this is why people get so into all of this. It feels pretty good knowing all these people are interested in my life. Even if my life is just me advertising a gifted car.
Almost nine thousand followers in a few hours. That seems good, although now that I think about it, I recall Naomi Fairn’s numbers being up in the high 100k’s. I’m thinking about George again. And just like that my thumb flies up to the search bar at the top of the likes list and taps in George’s name before I can stop myself. No matches.
George hasn’t liked the photo. Obviously. I sincerely doubt he’s even seen it. But I wonder if she has. I tap on her profile and scroll-search for clues once more.
After a good bout of Insta-stalking I tap on George’s profile. There’s a new photo. My breath catches and I move the phone closer. A candid cast shot from theCatcher in the Ryerehearsal room last week. He’s surrounded by the rest of the cast, his arm casually slung over her thin shoulders as they both beam at the camera. I feel a hot burn of my rejection twist inside me and read the officialDeadlinecasting announcement beneath it. They must be in New York already. There together. Filming starts in four days. Everyone we know must know he broke up with me by now.
There’s a tap on my driver’s-side door and I yelp in surprise. Jesus Christ.
It’s a studio security guard. I lower the window.
“Everything okay, miss?”
I glance at the dash clock: 7:03. Oh God.I’ve been obsessing for over forty-five minutes.
“Sorry, lost track of time. I’m…I’m just leaving now.” I fumble with my seatbelt and throw him as sane a smile as I can muster.
He looks at me slightly concerned. “Okay, ma’am. You have a good rest of the evening.”
6
The Favor
WEDNESDAY, FEBRUARY 10
“Theylovedyou!” The callcomes at sevena.m.a day and a half after my first audition. My agent Michael is calling from his car on the way into the United offices in Beverly Hills. His voice is bright, full of excitement. “Anthoniloved you, and he’s—well, he can be—tough sometimes.”
I can imagine.
