His eyes dart to Reign behind me; they are now realizing what I am doing here, but I tug on his neck, drawing his attention back to me.
“Not him, me. Tell me if I mean anything to you or if I mean nothing at all.”
He searches my eyes, his face expressionless and I stare into them as I continue seriously.
“Is this more than just sex? Because I feel it is, but I want to know where I stand with you.”
“I don’t need to spell it out for you, Char.”
My gaze drops to his lips, and I whisper in return.
“Yes, you do. I want to know, Chaos. I need to hear it right now.”
I understand I am putting him under pressure in front of his domineering brother, but there is no way through all these months that they have not spoken about what I am to them or how they feel. He continues to stare into my eyes with seriousness before bringing his hands to the sides of my neck, causing me to release him.
“Since the moment I laid eyes on you, something ignited within me—a fire that I can't explain. I haven't exactly gone about things the right way, haven't verbalized what you fucking mean to me, but I hope you feel it in every moment we share together. You are more than just someone I spend my time with; you are special to me, Lil Chaos. You've breathed life into parts of me that were void and dark for a very long time.”
I push back tears because I felt the sincerity in his words and my love jar was almost filled to the brim. I give him a soft smile and bring my palm to his face before whispering.
“Thank you.”
I give him a gentle kiss before he stands tall and then I close my eyes, taking a deep breath before I turn to face Reign. His gaze is intense, unwavering and I know instantly that he is going to be the tough one to crack; that’s why I saved him for last. I place my palms on his abs, feeling every ridge and bump as I move them up to his chest. I press my breasts against him and search his eyes for any hint of vulnerability.
“Tell me, Reign.”
His jaw tenses as he glances away.
“I’m not fucking like that, Charley. I am not, Chaos; it’s not that easy for me to tell you how I fucking feel; I thought we established that.”
I shake my head and respond softly.
“I don’t want you to be Chaos and I don’t want Chaos to be you. I just want to know; it is that simple. It doesn’t have to be poetic; it doesn’t have to be beautiful; it just has to be you.”
With his face still turned to the side, he speaks through tight teeth.
“Chaos, get the fuck out.”
I roll my lips inward and look away since I know this is a pride thing. Reign doesn’t like to show his ‘weaknesses’ in front of anyone, including his brother.
As Chaos passes us to give Reign some privacy, I observe, waiting for the door to close behind him and when it does Reign's gaze finally meets mine. His eyes are intense, and when he takes a step forward, I instinctively raise my chin and take a step back.
“Why the fuck are you doing this, Char?”
When my ass hits a chest of drawers behind me, I continue to raise my chin, but he simply grabs my waist, lifts me, and drops me onto it as if I am a little toy he can just throw around. He leans in, bringing his face close to mine while placing his palms on either side of me.
“I want to know; I deserve to know, Reign. You are a fully grown man; you should know how you feel so fucking tell me.”
He elevates his chin as he glances around my face, expressionlessly.
“You’re asking all these fucking questions but how do you feel?”
I inhale deeply, feeling overwhelmed by his presence, but I remain strong.
“I like you. A lot. I like how you keep me grounded and make me feel safe no matter where we are. I like how you are slow with your emotions, but you show you care in small doses, which makes them even more special to me.”
He just stares at me as I continue.
“I like how you are rough with me, yet you can also be a gentle giant when I need it most. I had never felt wanted in my life, but you and Chaos make me feel wanted, even if you are not trying to. You both offer me different things, grounding me, andtogether, you give me a balance that I never knew I needed. You are different from one another, yet in some fucked-up way I have become obsessed with how you guys make me feel.”
