No one likes me. I don't like myself most days.
I didn't want to do anything that would risk changing that. Anything that might stop her from crawling into my lap again of her own free will.
I've never been big into jacking off, but sometimes your body needs the release. A rush of adrenaline can do that to you, or waking up with a hard-on. It's the same as scratching an itch.
That is not what it was last night when I was beating off over the toilet, eyes closed as I thought about my dick being in Teddy's soft, welcoming pussy. I'd come so hard it was almost painful, and my dick still hadn't gone down.
When I came back out, she was already asleep. I grabbed one of the chairs and pulled it over to her side of the bed and simply watched her for a few hours trying to figure out what spell she'd cast over me. Not that I wanted an antidote for it. This is the first time I've felt truly alive. I enjoy watching her, talking to her, and every other little detail about her. She’s one of a kind. She’s also mine.
Now that I’ve had a taste of her, there is no going back for either one of us. She sealed her fate when she pressed her soft lips to mine.
A small sigh comes from her, interrupting my thoughts of how I’m going to keep her forever, and she starts to move her legs. I grit my teeth, but a groan still manages to rip free, her leg rubbing against my cock. She has no fucking clue how sexy she is, which only adds to her appeal.
"Huh?" she asks, her head popping up but her eyes still closed.
Slowly she blinks them open, and I expect her to freak out, to forget where she is and why a man three times her size is in bed with her. Instead, I get a bright smile that warms even the darkest parts of my tainted soul.
I don’t deserve to be this close to her, to touch her, or to breathe the same air as this innocent creature. But that’s not going to stop me.
“Sleep okay?” I ask her, wishing she would have slept longer. I enjoy the feel of her body pressed to mine. She nods her head.
“Did I cuddle attack you?” With her hair a mess and her eyes still filled with sleep, she has to be the most adorable creature on this earth. Her grandmother might have had the right idea keeping her tucked away from a world that would taint that. Now that I am here, I can protect her innocence. Any and all tainting will be done by me and only me.
“If this is what ‘cuddle attack’ means, then you can do it to me anytime.”
"I don't know." She strums her fingers on my chest. "Last night you ran from me." Her smile grows. "Which is kind of funny when I really think about it. How could you be scared of me?"
If anyone has the skill set to hurt me, it would be her and her alone. Fuck, I hadn't thought about that until this moment.
"I didn't want to scare you," I tell her, making her brows rise.
"How can I be scared of you? You're the best human ever," she tells me. "Wait, Lily Pad is too." She scrunches her nose. "I mean, it's a close race, but Lily might beat you by this much." She shows a tiny sliver between two fingers.
"Okay," I agree, uncertain about how to respond to that. I'm not anywhere close to a good human.
"Did I hurt your feelings?" Her bottom lip puffs out, making an uneasy feeling creep in.
"No."
"So you get it? She's my best friend."
"It's fine, Teddy Bear," I reassure her, making her smile come back. That uneasy sensation dissipates. Holy fuck. If she'ssmiling or not even fucks with me. I've lost it, but it doesn't matter. “I need to feed you,” I tell her.
"Okay." She scrambles out of bed, and I miss her warmth immediately. "I'm going to brush my teeth so maybe you'll kiss me again." She practically hops to the bathroom.
I close my eyes for a second, trying to calm my body down. Never in my life have I felt so out of control. Kiss her? That’s the least I want to do. Fuck her into the mattress is more like it. I sit up, gripping the back of my neck. A slight crunch caught my attention, the snapping sound coming from near the window. I walk over to it and rip the curtain back, but no one is there.
I push open the window and look down at the ground, seeing a set of boot prints right outside it. The hell.
"I'm going to go check on something real quick," I tell Teddy, throwing on some clothes. She pops her head out of the door with a toothbrush in her mouth. "See about checking us out of the room and asking if there is anywhere local where we can grab breakfast."
She gives me a thumbs-up. I make sure the windows are secure before I head out toward the front desk.
There is a new woman behind the desk this morning.
"You guys have cameras in the parking lot?" I ask her.
"Ah, yeah." She was hesitant to answer me. I pull out a couple of hundreds and slide them across the desk.
