“I’m really sorry for how you had to grow up.”
“I’m not. You’re my reward.” He says it with so much certainty.
“That’s really, really sweet.”
“I’m only that way to you.”
“That’s all that matters.” I wink at him. Killian is my sweetheart. “Well, be nice to Lily and Roland when we get back home. He means well, I promise.” I pat his thigh and then start to stroke it. The man has great thighs. They'd gotten me off.
“Zolotse.” Killian’s tone is deep. I can see the very hard outline of his cock.
“I know how we can burn off my adrenaline.” I lick my lips. Killian lets out a groan. “How far is the hotel?”
“Too far.” He presses on the gas, speeding up.
“We’re going all the way tonight,” I let him know. His hold on the steering wheel tightens. “You want to?” Killian grunts a response, which only turns me on more. “We’re getting married anyways, so I don’t know why the hold-up. Right? I’m scared and excited.”
“Scared?” I feel his foot come partly off the gas. Oh noes.
“Not a bad scared.”
“There is a scared that's not bad?”
"Okay, 'scared' is maybe the wrong word, but you know what they say about a girl's first time." I shrug.
"I have heard this. I googled it the other night. I do not want you to be scared, Zolotse. I have learned how to best do this, but we don't have to."
I bet Killian is more scared for me than I am, which is adorable. This big man that people fear is the gentlest man Ihave ever met. I know without a doubt that he will make sure I’m taken care of and make my first time as painless as possible.
"You googled it?"
"I don't want to cause you pain."
"I know you don't, but I'm glad it's you, Killian. I know I'm in good hands." He gives a small nod, the car growing quiet for a long moment.
"You know, I'm glad it's you too. It would only ever have been you."
"What if you never found me?"
"I do not wish to speak of those things." I see the corners of his mouth pull down.
"I'm not going anywhere, Killian. I love you to pieces, and we're stuck together."
"Zolotse,” he growls my name. "You say this while I'm driving?"
"Ope, my bad.” I pretend to have a fishing line and reel it back in. "I'll save it for when we're doing it. I just didn't want to say it while we're doing it and you think it's the heat of the moment."
Killian takes an audible breath, and I love how much those words from me affect him. I wouldn't care if he never says them back. Okay, I would, but I don't need them right now. Killian loves me, and I want him to know that I love him, and nothing changes that. Not even when I'm upset. I want him to realize that I'm solid in his life, and I'm not going anywhere.
It's part of why I was quick to forgive him when I learned everything. Obviously, I'm not going to let him get away with murder. Well, okay, maybe murder, but you know what I mean. I knew I would forgive him for it, so I wasn't going to draw it out. This time. I wanted him to see that because I don't believe he's had that in his life before, and I'm going to give it to him.
My Killian will always know he is loved.
Chapter Twenty-Four
KILLIAN
My heart thunders in my chest. I'm on overload, and I have to remind myself that I need to keep control. I'm not used to it slipping through my fingers. This roar I have in my ears.
