“All right.” Brian grinned and headed for the stairs. “See you then.”
Why didn’t you go with him to the church?Patrick wondered after his friend was gone. His gaze drifted to his cell phone lying on the desk. He swallowed thickly. No… that wasn’t why.
Itwasn’t.
. . .
Lucas wiped his mouth. “What the hell? You were supposed to make the call.”
Panting heavily, Derek laughed. “Whatever. I’m not gonna call the guy with my dick in your mouth.”
“Why not? Like I said, it would keep you in the right frame of mind.”
“I want tobreakthe date.” Derek exhaled. “I can’t do that if I’m imagining himblowingme.”
Lucas chuckled. “What the fuck you talking about—you don’t want to break the date.”
“Why the hell would I want tokeepit? I don’t want to sound like a shallow bastard, but if there’s no fucking in our future…” He shrugged. “I don’t want that future.”
Lucas chuffed.
“What?”
“You’re so full of shit, bro.” He looked at Derek and grinned. “You’re so fucking hung up on this guy you can’t see straight. Even though youthinkhe’ll never fuck you—you still want to go out with him.” He bumped Derek’s arm. “And you should. There’s something going on in that cute head of his if he agreed to a date. Seriously, if he was wholly committed tocelibacy, why the fuck would he go out with someone who so obviously likes to fuck.”
“Maybe it wasn’t so obvious to him.”
Lucas snorted. “You telling me you didn’t flirt with him before you asked him out?”
Smiling, Derek nodded. “Yeah, I did.”
“And how did he respond? Did he like it?”
“I thought he did. He even asked me if I had a boyfriend.”
“What?” Lucas stared at him. “He asked you that?”
“Yeah, but…” Derek held up a hand. “… only after I asked him. So, it doesn’t necessarily mean anything.”
“Like fuck, it doesn’t. Who gives a shit if you asked him first—he wouldn’t have wanted to know if he wasn’t interested.”
That had been Derek’s deduction. Even so… he wasn’t hopeful about Patrick or the end result of their date.
“Goout with him,” Lucas said. “Show him what he’s missing.”
“How?”
“If you don’t know—then you should be banned from porn.”
Derek sighed. “I’m not seducing him. That wouldn’t prove anything. Besides, I… I wouldn’t want him to regret anything we did together.”
“Hey.” Lucas squinted. “Coming from someone who’s fucked you—manytimes—that boy would not fucking regretanything.”
Derek wished he had Lucas’ confidence.
“So, call him, keep the date, and…” Lucas kissed him. “… see where it takes you.”
Anxiety ate at Derek’s gut. “I don’t know,” he mumbled. “Maybe I should just forget about this one. It could get complicated and I don’t want complicated.”
