RO
I jolt awake as the nightmare grows intense. Expect, it’s not a nightmare. It’s actually what fucking happened last night. I jump when I feel Sadie’s hand on my back, and she sits up next to me. “Are you okay?” she whispers, and I just nod my head, looking over at her.
I’ve had nightmares every night since I got home a few days ago but this one is the fucking worse. I was actually a little surprised when Sadie never asked a word about what happened. Although, I keep catching her side eye me, keeping tabs on how I am reacting.
“Ro.” She whispers to me again and I sigh out. “What happened?” Looking over at her, seeing the moonlight reflecting off of her skin as she holds the sheet up over her tits, at an attempt to cover herself.
How do you tell someone that your rival is coming after them, that you’ve made them a fucking target?
“He shot her,” Turning to look at her, “so I wouldn’t follow him. He knew I would stop.”
“What do you mean?”
I press the heel of my hands into my eyes as I lean over, still feeling her hands on my back. “He shot her.” I whisper again. “I went to try and help her, but she ended up grabbing my gun and shooting herself.”
I expect to hear her gasp, but it doesn’t come. Slowly, I look back at her to see a sad smile on her face.
“What?”
“You just surprise me, that’s all.” Her smile slightly grows, but I’m not sure how she could find anything amusing in this. “You’re this big tough biker. Been to prison…” it makes me laugh as well. She’s saying it shocks her that I’m affected over this. That she would assume I wouldn’t be fazed.
“But being the cause of this woman’s death fucked me up.” She nods her head again. “I don’t hurt innocent people.”
“That’s just my point.” She smiles again as she leans into me and presses a gentle kiss to my lips. “You didn’t do anything to her. In fact, most people wouldn’t have even stopped, but you did. You tried to help her, and in the end, you probably did help her.” Her eyes light up as she continues to talk to me. It makes me feel so much worse about the situation that I’ve put her in. I can’t make myself match the happiness in her eyes. I can barely stand to look at her… or myself.
Looking away quickly, “That’s not all.” I whisper this time. Letting someone know for the first time letting them see the vulnerability that I can manage, that I wasn’t even sure I still possessed until now.
“Then what else?” She asks, leaning her head down until she reaches underneath my chin and forces me to look up at her, as I have done to her so many times. Her eyes encouraging me to confess my sins to her.
“Because of today J wants to hurt you to hurt me.”
“To hurt both of us.” She raises her eyebrows.
“What?”
“J has been planning on hurting me since I left. We both know that. It just so happens that now… now, hurting me hurts both of us. He got lucky with that.” She leans into me once again, kissing me softly.
She pulls away from me, breaking the kiss, and looking at me. “You haven’t put me at more risk than I have already put myself in, so stop thinking like that. If anything, you’ve kept me safer for longer.” Her eyes continue to watch mine; I’m assuming gauging the guilt that is sitting behind them. “When J breaks in here looking for me, Linc and I will hide. He won’t find us.”
“Did you even mention him to J?”
“No.” I quickly tell him, I’m not that stupid, even high out of my mind.
“He can’t find out about him.” I whisper to her, realizing for the first time what would happen if he found out that Linc has a connection to the Midnight Syn. “He’ll die trying to get him as a way to hurt both of the clubs.” She nods her head.
“I remember that he was pissed with them.”
“He’ll do anything to hurt them. And if it affects both clubs.”
“2 birds, 1 stone.”
She nods her head as she situates, moving her leg over my lap as she sits down and looks at me. “Ro, I know that you will do anything to protect us. It’s why he’s here with us. I know, I haven’t been the best mom… but I never would have put him in a situation where I thought he would be in danger. Even at my worst.” Looking away as I let the weight of her words in. “I promised Oz I would move on. I promised him that I would find someone who would protect me and love me unconditionally. I know that’s what he would have wanted for Linc as well.” Her hand touches my cheek as she turns my face to look at her. “I have no doubt that he’s grateful of where I am in this moment, and he’s satisfied that I fulfilled that promise.”
My heart tugs as she tells me this, the look in her eyes, full of honesty. Her words weighing on me, but in a way that brings me a peace that I’m not sure I’ve ever felt before but fills a void I’ve felt my whole life.
Not only is she telling me that we’re a family, that even if Linc isn’t mine he’s mine, but also that Oz would approve of me raising his son.
Leaning into her, I grip ahold of her face, pulling her down to me. Her hips grind against my lap causing a groan out of my throat and a smile forms on her face. She moves just enough to pull the sheet off of my lap. Gripping ahold of me, she lines my cock up with her entrance and then quickly she slides down my shaft causing another groan from bubbling up and filtering out my throat.
