I don't look back.
I don’t go to Blake’s office.
For one second, I almost do. The lunch is still warm against my side, and Blake is somewhere on this floor working through another meal because none of us have managed to make him stop. But Rosalie is crying into my sweater, James is shaking against Samuel’s hand, and Samuel is standing like a guard in an elevator he should only associate with buttons and bad jokes.
Blake needs lunch. The children need out I press the button for the lobby.
Inside the elevator, I keep my eyes on the numbers above the door and hold Rosalie as tightly as I can without hurting her. Samuel stands in front of James, still holding his hand. James stares at the seam between the elevator doors. His mouth's pressed into a hard line, and his fingers are white around Samuel's. When coffee leaks from the tray, Samuel reaches into the bag for a napkin with the automatic focus of a child trying to repair the thing he can see.
"I can clean it," he says.
"You don't have to clean anything." My voice comes out too thin, so I press my cheek to Rosalie's hair and try again. "Stand close to me."
He does, and I hate that he has to.
The drive home's quiet. Samuel doesn't ask for music. James doesn't tell me what was structurally wrong with the fake plant near the conference room. Rosalie sits with her rabbit pressed to her mouth, hiccuping every few minutes as if the crying's gotten stuck somewhere small and painful inside her. I keep both hands on the wheel and check the mirrors too often. No one follows us. No one has to. Dorian's voice has already followed me into the car.
By the time I pull into the driveway, the fear's turned sharp enough to cut.
I froze in front of the children. Dorian didn't touch me, didn't raise his voice, didn't say a single sentence that would look ugly enough if someone printed it in an email. He only stood too close, moved too little, chose words that sounded careful, and watched my body prove him right.
Maceo's in the kitchen when we come in. He looks up from the counter, and his face changes before I say anything. He sees Rosalie's swollen eyes, Samuel's rigid shoulders, James's grip onmy sweater, the untouched lunch bag still crushed in my hand. He sets down his mug and comes around the island slowly enough not to startle the children.
Rosalie reaches for him before he asks. Maceo takes her and settles her against his chest, one hand broad across her back, his gaze moving to Samuel next. Samuel begins talking too fast, telling him they had to leave, that Dorian was in the hallway, that he moved but not really, that Papa was trying but the elevator was behind him and James was shaking. Maceo listens without interrupting until Samuel runs out of breath, then asks James to help him choose a movie that'll keep the room calm. James hesitates, still attached to my sweater, but Maceo waits. He doesn't tug. He doesn't hurry him. After a moment, James lets go and follows Samuel toward the living room.
Maceo looks at me once over Rosalie's curls.
I nod because it's the only answer I can give without coming apart in the kitchen.
I make it upstairs before the shaking gets bad. The Nest's quiet when I close the door, too quiet at first, then familiar as the scents settle around me. Blake's pillow's near the headboard. Grayson's sweater's folded badly over the chair because he folds everyone else's things with care and his own like an afterthought. Luther's scent is deep in the blankets, cedar and smoke and Alpha steadiness. I drag the heavy wool blanket around my shoulders and curl into the corner where the bed meets the wall, pressing my face into fabric that doesn't smell like floor wax.
Blake comes in before I'm ready and later than the part of me looking for him wanted.
The air changes first. His scent sharpens, that usual pear twisted with ink and smoke turning colder at the edges, and then he's there, crossing the room with a stillness that frightens me more than rushing would have. He sits on the edge of thebed in front of me but doesn't touch. Blake, who reaches for me before thought catches up when I'm hurting, keeps his hands on his own knees and looks at me like he's counting the distance between us.
"Tell me," he says, and the word's quiet enough to be worse than shouting.
I pull the blanket tighter around my shoulders and make myself speak before the silence can teach my body that I'm back in that hallway. "He caught us outside the conference room. He said he wanted to ask about Ember House. Not legal structure. Mission language. Visibility. Whether residents might ever consent to speaking publicly if it was handled carefully."
Blake doesn't move, but something in his face shuts down.
"He talked about my story," I continue, staring at my own hands because his stillness is too much. "He said Ember House exists because I survived and built something from it. He said donors might understand the sanctuary better if that connection was framed with care."
Blake reaches for me then. His hands are careful, almost cold with restraint as he takes one of my wrists, turns it, then the other. I tell him Dorian didn't touch me, and he nods once to show he heard, but his thumb still passes over my pulse, over skin that's got no marks and somehow feels bruised anyway. He checks because his body needs proof. I let him because part of me needs the same thing.
"He moved when I said he was blocking me," I whisper. "But only enough that it'd sound unreasonable if I said he still was."
Blake's jaw tightens. His hands release my wrists and move to the blanket instead, gripping the edge near my knees. For a second, I think he's going to speak, but he stands and crosses to the door. He checks the lock. Then the window. Then the bathroom. His movements are controlled, precise, and too fast beneath the control. He asks where the children are, and whenI tell him they're with Maceo, he asks again as if the answer might've changed in the space of one breath.
"Blake," I say, reaching for his shirt when he comes close enough. "Breathe."
"I am breathing."
He's not. His chest is moving quickly, and one hand presses briefly against the center of it before he pulls it away. The sight sends a new kind of fear through me, immediate and clean. Dorian made me freeze. Blake looking like his heart might punish him for loving me makes me move.
The door opens before I can pull him back.
Grayson steps inside with a tray balanced in both hands, two bowls, bread, water, a folded cloth tucked beneath one elbow. He takes in the room quickly: me under the blanket, Blake by the door, the window checked, the bathroom light on, the air too sharp with Blake's restraint. He sets the tray down on the dresser and crosses to Blake without raising his voice.
