I can stick around a little longer, to make sure Deidre is dealt with. But after that, I’m gone. This is already too much pressure. Too many people to keep safe.
Too much potential for disaster.
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Chapter 8: Mona
I’m trying really hard not to cry, but I’m still in heat, and my omega is really fucking sensitive. Way more than me.
Yeah, it’s her that’s getting her feelings hurt. Me? I’m fine.
I’m totally fine.
I sniff, wiping more tears off my cheeks. Silas stiffens in the front seat, his shoulders tense and rigid. I can feel him through the bond. He doesn’t like that I’m crying. Well, I can’t fucking help it!
Calm, Beep says.
And just like that, I begin sobbing.
“What is wrong with you?” Silas barks. “Are you—fuck, are you alright?”
I try to answer, to yell at him for being a dick, but Beep is there. She’s been back, I could feel her, but her first words to me send a cascade of relief rushing through me. God, I missed her so much.
It will be okay, Mona. Stay calm.
“You stay calm!” I snap back.
“What?” Silas asks.
I ignore him.
Because that’s what you do when you’re bonded to a man who doesn’t want you.
Mating bonds can be broken. Is that what you want?Ghost asked Silas. And after everything we went through together, after all these months, all the pain and shit and horror, all leading us back to each other—to him, of all people, finding me in that basement, in heat, rescuing me, then riding me through the most intense, painful, pleasurable moments of my life—and he said. Fucking. Nothing.
I can feel it, too. Ache and anger along the thread binding us together.
He may not have admitted he wants to break the bond, but he blames me for it. And it was my fault, wasn’t it? I’m the monster here. I have no right to be hurt.
I choke on another sob.
The two of them, conspiring about how much they don’t want me.We’re in agreement then. Get her home to her alphas. Go our separate ways.
Try to rest, Beep tells me.
I can’t, I think back.I did this. It’s my fault. My heart feels like it’s being ripped out through my ribs and I can’t—I can’t—
I’m hyperventilating at the thoughts of what I’ve done. He said no, he tried to hold me back. But I climbed on top of him and made him fuck me.
And then I bit Silas, bonded him.Against his will.Trapped him forever with someone he’ll never love. Maybe he should break the bond.
Oh god, just the idea that he’ll cut this tether between us—I let out another keening cry.
“Mona! Tell me what’s happening!” Silas shouts frantically.
He’s angry. Scared. Worried, too, because he’s not a bad guy like he thinks he is. He’s rough around the edges, but he’s actually the best guy. He does really hard things, and I’m so proud of him.
Shame washes over me. And it’s so heavy, it collides with his. Our bond, like a lit tether, a magical string tying us together, sends emotions and errant thoughts between us, and all the torment inside him is so overwhelming, I think I’m drowning in it.
