I’m being filled with cum.
A man’s cum.
Marcus’s.
The sensation is not bad per se, it’s just odd, and it lulls me back to the reality of what I allowed to happen.
I let Marcus fuck me.
As he lifts his head, struggling to breathe, his face so fucking beautiful, a dangerous realization hits me.
Unlike what he suggested, this wasnotjust a fuck.
I don’t feel like bursting out of my skin after just a fuck. I don’t feel scared of not having this again after just a fuck. I don’t get terrified of that noise that could swallow me whole.
Scratch.
Scratch.
Scratch.
A low growl leaves him as his lips claim mine in a ferocious kiss. I can feel his cum in my ass, and I think I’ve made a huge mistake.
I just had the best sex of my life, but I’m not happy.
Or, more precisely, happiness is shadowed by something far more ominous.
Black tendrils writhe in my throat, choking on the blinding terror that splinters my mind. I’m unraveling, thread by thread, splitting open from the inside, and I’m scared.
No, I’mterrifiedhe’ll finally glimpse my fractured image bleeding through the cracks.
And then he’ll never want me again.
26
MARCUS
Harsh breaths fill the air.
Mine and Preston’s.
The heady, sweet smell of sex and cum—and especiallyhim—wraps me in a cocoon tighter than his embrace.
And it istight.
He’s all pressed up against me, our slicked skin glued together as he digs his fingers into my back painfully.
Not sure he realizes what he’s doing, but it doesn’t matter. I’m busy enjoying the fact that he wrapped his arms around me a bit too much.
It’s like a present. Preston has never really been proactive about touching me—he’s only kissed me twice of his own accord, and for one of them, he was drunk and high.
And then this.
Naturally, I won’t put an end to this, even if it hurts and I can’t breathe properly with my head buried in his neck.
I fall into the rhythm of his frantic heartbeat thrumming against mine as his harsh breaths echo in the air. He lets out a small, sated noise like a sigh, and my cock twitches inside him.
No sense of boundaries for that one, apparently.
