“Your family dynamic is as strange as… this,” Asch remarks. “No wonder you’re so open to all of this.”
River nods, eating his own food — kung pao chicken, from the looks of it. “Her mother, Vanessa—” He cuts himself off, looking at me. “Well, Pandora can tell you what she wants you to know.”
What I want them to know.
I’m drained, like all the blood trickled out of the punctures in my chest. But, strangely, I don’t feel like the world is trying to murder me anymore.
“It’s fine. Mama is a pushover who pretends everybody is a lot nicer than they actually are.” I add some rice to my mapo tofu. “Anyway, I wasn’t even checking for drugs. I was checking if the food was worth eating.”
“Sure,” Blaze says. He’s got veggie lo mein in front of him. The fried tofu is probably for him too. “How are you feeling?”
“Like three guys fucked me hard,” I answer glibly. “My pussy is absolutely wrecked.”
“Your pussy would be even more wrecked if we’d DP’d it,” Asch says with a smirk in between his own beef and broccoli. “Which wewillbe doing at some point. It was too good not to share.”
“Wait. You DP’d her cunt?” River asks, pausing with his fork halfway to his mouth.
“Just Asch.” I steal one of Blaze’s tofu. “He’s got double dicks.”
“Yep,” Asch says, deadpan. “Haven’t you noticed?”
River shakes his head, going back to eating. “The three of you are wild.”
“The three ofus?” Blaze scoffs. “You’re the one who followed Pandora to university. Out of everywhere in the world, you chose to come here.”
“I wasn’t here to play games,” River mutters. “I was here for…”
Revenge.
Asch quirks a brow. “Yeah, what were you here for then?”
River gives me a long look. “I don’t even know anymore,” he says. “But it’s not what it was.”
“It’s because he couldn’t stay away from me,” I say. “Every time he fucked some other chick, he thought of me. Every time he was rubbing one out, he thought of me.”
It’s what I want to believe, anyway.
That’s what I’d thought when I’d first seen him at Dyschord.
“That’s not—” River lets out a frustrated sound, stabbing his food with his fork. “Okay, fine, I thought about you a lot. But I didn’t come here to fuck you and do all of… this.” He gestures to Blaze and Asch.
“Well, you can’t have her to yourself,” Blaze answers immediately. “Pandora is?—”
“Ours,” Asch finishes for him.
Aww, how sweet.
It’s like they actually want me or something.
I glance down at my food. “Anyway. I’m sure you didn’t say all that stuff earlier about me needing help because you want to throw me in the loony bin.”
“No,” River is the first to say, and I appreciate how quickly he gives the response. “But you need to start accepting help fromus. You call us your boyfriends; that comes with certain responsibilities on both ends.”
“I know I hadn’t said I was sorry before,” Asch says quietly. “But I am.” He sets his food down and gets closer to me, setting a hand on my shoulder. “Words are cheap. I’ll just have to prove to you that I won’t fuck up again.”
“Yeah.” I have no idea what to say to that.
They regret everything.
