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Utterly magnificent.
Why hadn't he told her about his art, his wonderful talent? Why did he hide it away in a room she would never have entered if she hadn't been searching for a piece of paper? All of this was inside of him, and yet he'd only talked about her talent, her art, her commissions.
She'd trusted him enough to tell him about her mother's illness, about Shady Lane and how badly she'd needed the money to pay for a better place. She'd even turned her mother's welfare over to him, letting him bring in doctors. She'd told him she loved him, for God's sake. Yet he hadn't trusted her with his secret.
As an artist, she knew just how vital creation was to her soul. This was clearly a huge part of what made Sebastian the man he was, and they could have shared their love of art. No wonder he'd had so many helpful ideas for her chariot and horses. His interest in the drawing program suddenly made sense too. An iPad lay on the floor, as if he'd started playing with that as well. Creation was in his blood.
But he hadn't told her.
Knowing he didn't want to share his work wounded her deeply. It meant he didn't trust her with this special piece of himself.
And yet...
When she looked at the drawings again, she saw all incarnations of herself, from the overalls and steel-toes to her descent of the Regent's staircase in her consignment dress. There was even a sketch of her at the designer shop wearing the velvet and pearl dress.
She'd worried that he hadn't actually seen her until the gala when she'd walked down the stairs and into his arms, that he hadn't truly wanted her until she could fit into his glittering Cinderella world. But these drawings showed that he'd seen the real Charlie all along--her independence, her commitment to her vision, even her playfulness.
Most of all, she saw his love for her. And knew that it had been there all along too.
None of that explained why he hadn't shared his talent with her, but in the face of so much love, how could she possibly hold on to her hurt? As she moved her fingers over yet another superb drawing, she vowed to help him bring his art into the open.
He had done so much for her, again and again. Now, she would do the same for him. No matter what.
Perhaps she should have used a blank page to draw the now nearly forgotten vision from her dream, but she couldn't resist looking through more of his sketches. And she saw that she wasn't his only subject. She found sketch after sketch of a couple in their thirties. The similarity in the man's jawline and mouth to Sebastian's features tipped her off to their identities.
His parents.
Her heart raced as she studied the pictures carefully. Though obviously a good-looking man, there was also a weakness in his father's face--a weakness there was no evidence of in Sebastian's. His mother was pretty, but tired and worn. And yet, what came through was Sebastian's love for them. It was in the details, the laugh lines at his mother's mouth, the occasional hint of a smile in his father's eyes and around his mouth despite the slightly slack skin.
"What are you doing?" Sebastian's voice was like a slap out of the dark.
CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
Sketchbooks slid off Charlie's lap in her surprise, one falling open to the drawing from the night of the gala. Sebastian marched into the small room, filling it, overwhelming it, his face shadowed and his eyes dark. He'd pulled a pair of sweats over his lean hips, leaving his chest bare and beautiful. Her mouth went dry, from the sight of him as much as from the knowledge that she'd been snooping through his private sketchbooks.
"I woke up with an idea," she explained. "I wanted to get it down before I forgot." It was long forgotten now, and she didn't even care, not when she'd discovered something more precious than diamonds. "I couldn't find any paper in the bedroom, so I came in here."
His features were hard, immobile, like a piece of metal she hadn't yet welded into submission. "How long have you been looking through my things?" His voice was as hard as his face. It could break rocks.
Worse, it could break her. Right in two. Straight through the center of her heart. The heart she'd just given to him.
All the hurt she'd worked to push away rushed back. "I was only planning to take a blank piece to write some notes on, but then..." She waved a hand at the sketch still face-up on the floor. "I saw a drawing of myself. And I was--"
Before she could let him know how moved she was by his talent and the incredible emotion he'd captured in every single sketch, he grabbed the pads off the floor and the side table, then snatched the one she held right out of her hand.
"They're not for public consumption." He tossed the sketchbooks in the drawer of a small bureau against the wall.
"Public consumption?" The words burned her throat as they came out in a horrible echo.
"They're private."
It was pure instinct for Charlie to push past him and leave, to run as far and as fast as she could. Far enough for her to figure out how to weld the break in the heart he'd just ripped apart. But how could she forget what he'd said to her as they made love? I love you, Charlie. I've never loved anyone the way I love you. Never knew I could love like this. He'd told her he loved her. With his words, his body. Despite the way he'd lashed out at her, she truly believed his drawings revealed how much he loved her, over and over again with every single stroke of his pencil. But now, he was trying to push her away, trying to make sure she never asked him about these drawings.
Well, it was going to take a hell of a lot more than that to make her leave. She wouldn't walk away from him.
But she would get him to tell her why he hid his beautiful art in a tiny room where no one would ever see it.
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